Wednesday, May 31, 2006

I Have Become What I Hate...

...Namely a blonde self-absorbed Witch.

Scary thought, huh?

So, I just made potato filling for the blintzes and now I have to fill and wrap them. I think I might make a batch or two of cookies - the only real question is what kind to make.

I need to fix my pink shiny skirt or I run the risk of having nothing 'nice' to wear to Raquel's wedding next week.

I looked soooo funny today!! Aside from wearing pink and a short skirt - I just felt 'dumb' - I'm not sure why.

Seems we're having lots of company over for Chag. It's going to be quite interesting.

I am forgotten - of that I am basically assured. We shall see though.

The Dibble offered me some 'bug juice' when I got Home. He explained to me that it was a new bottle so it would be 'quite fresh' and upon inquiring after the ingredients he calmly explained to me that it was made from...

"Freshly squeezed beetles and ants..."

Yeah, folks this is where I live.

No wonder I am me...

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Eeevil Deevils Took My Seat...

Tell me 'bout Hector the Collector - I've sunken to a new low. As I walk down Yafo almost every day I notice that people have deposited perfectly good gum-wrappers on the sidewalk. As I see these, I think to myself - "self, those are perfectly good wrappers that could be making the gum wrapper chain longer." Worry not. I have not yet stooped to the level of actually collecting them.

Somebody stop me - PLEASE!! I was on my way to Chor Bakir to exchange my new skirt (because I realized that I DID need the smaller size in the khaki. Silly salespeople... lying to me. Harumph!) and I passed by the store where Sammy found me the cute black zip-up shirt. They had further reduced the prices and they had the shirt in MORE colors!!! I couldn't resist! WAH!

Got to the office half an hour early (ugh!) Today was relatively boring. Though I had stuff to do. I made my third trip of the week to the post-office and I filed.

Had an amusing sort of mishap with e-mails today. But it's a personal story. Let's just say - sometimes being nice can make you do silly things. Hehe, but no harm done - right Little Brother? ;)

I can't believe it's only been a week since I was Home watching a movie on the hammock. It feels like ages have passed. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not. But either way, I haven't really been thinking about it. Let's see how things go this weekend and if they go anywhere at all.

About Tushheaditis. Yeah, it exists. Of that I am certain.

On a funny note - I have always liked the name Asher. Honestly, I have.

If only poker weren't so attention-grabbing, friends weren't so important and Lori didn't feel this need to finish projects that she started...

Thanks for the invite Rays.

Mebbe next time. ;)

Monday, May 29, 2006

To Stick Something Out...

Patience and Perseverance. Two qualities that I hold in high esteem. I have been working on them for quite some time now. Do I see it actually paying off? Well, I do make a 'mean' batch of snail cookies. :)

I SPOKEDED TO MINE BECCA TODAY ALL THE WAY FROM AUSTRALIA!!! I MISS HER SUMP'IN AWFUL!!!

I nearly broke my teacher's heart this morning when I told her how much her class has made me dislike massage. I shmoozed with the TA (who incidentally is really sweet and who I believe is going to be coming to my apartment tomorrow night to help me get the 'flow' of the material that I need to make it through stazh.)

I was obnoxious at the office today. Well, first they sent me to the post-office - which wouldn't bother me except that I was taking down everybody else's personal mail too (because they are too lazy to go.) Maybe, they could just take their stupid letters and the office mail too and save me a trip?!?!?!?! At least I got to see my 'friend' in the ice-cream store. I think I amuse him seeing as I always get the same thing. As a matter of fact - today when he saw me coming he rushed over to the freezer and pulled out exactly what I needed. (Does he even realize that I'm not the one eating them?)

On the walk back to the ranch I bumped into Shani Sladowsky and decided to walk her to the 417 bus-stop. That way we had a chance to shmooze (which was really nice.) It kind of put me in the mood to talk to old friends whom I have fallen out of contact with.

Now back at the apt. I am trying to decide what exactly to do. There are plenty of projects that I could work on and things to do - but which do I WANT to do?! So many choices.

At least I can comfort myself with the knowledge that I looked really cute today. I wore one of my new skirts (the denim one) and it is SOOOOO not me. But, truth be told - it does look really good. And it's only a size _:)_, so I am quite pleased and happy.

Hehe, I'm in such a trouble-making mood now. I'm not sure what to do!!

Maybe I'll call a friend. :)

I like friends.

There's nothing quite like a friend.

Sunday, May 28, 2006

Brochie Says to 'Make a Move...'

Sammy turned off the alarm clock because it is her job. Then she went back to sleep. Miraculously I made the bus - thank you Daddy for going the extra distance and dropping me off at the bus stop. All I wanted to listen to on the ride was 'wrap your words around me' - but I don't have it on my Pod.

On the way to school I stopped off for some ice-cream for breakfast. (Rays - I think you're rubbing off on me...) School was novel. I still can't deal with touching some 74 year old woman's dry feet at 10:00 in the morning. On a nice note - Mommy and Freddie showed up to donate their feet to the cause. Sassy came to help out too. It was sooo nice!!! It was like a whole reunion.

I snuck out after the second treatment and skipped group therapy to join Mommy and Freddie on a trip to town. I somehow wound up getting two new skirts. (Once again, Rays I think you are 'girl'afying me.) The skirts are both short and 'fluffy' and girly!!!

Work was quite a party. Though I was busier than usual (doing lots of nothings) I had many adventures. Between; filing, ice cream, painted door shmidjets, paper cuts, turpentine, plastic gloves, scathing letters, paper shredding, post-office runs, bourekkas and carbs, life-stories and just remember sharing is caring - sometimes. So Sis, did I talk enough today? :)

After leaving the office I headed out to Bayit V'gan for the Afikei Messibat Siyum. It was SOOOO nice to see all of the Teachers and Rebbeim. In addition, Amalia is in Israel visiting and SHE DIDN'T TELL ME SHE WAS COMING!!!!! I also spent quality time with Sas and saw Miriam and and and... I even got to speak to all of the Teachers and Rabbis! I miss all of the faculty so much!! It was incredible to be able to go in and speak to them as though no time had passed. Of course I fully appreciated and made the most of the comfortable feeling - especially as I spilled out my messed up soap-opera-like stories for Brochie's level-headed assesment and advice. I laughed hysterically and she looked me straight in the eye and gave me the advice that I wanted to hear and some suggestions as well. :) (Yes, though I hated Nach Yomi there was NEVER a time that I disliked the teacher!!)

Shosh and I grabbed a bus back to our side of town before it got too late then we ate a bag of potato chips as we shmoozed and I bemoaned my lack of enthusiasm for writing a paper for reflexology.

I have a good touch? That's what people keep telling me.

People. A fascinating topic of study.

I think I'll go to sleep now. I'm thinking ice-cream for breakfast sounds REALLY good. Guess I'll try to walk both ways tomorrow.

Hehehe, so much for my diet.

Who needs it anyway?

Certainly not me!

Right? ;)

Saturday, May 27, 2006

Stop Flashing Me!!!...

Shabbos was decidedly wonderful.

Friday night was entertaining as we rewound the meal and undid the soup in order to make Kiddush (again) without spilling the grape-juice except for 'on accident...' (Of course, the cup is STILL upside-down.) Little Brother ate over (though the headache might not have been worth it.) After the meal I declined the silent invite to go on a walk and spent time shmoozing with Michalie and Brenda. (And why does everybody seem to spell their names with 'y's instead of 'i's?! Maybe I've been doing it wrong all these years and it should really be Lory? Wouldn't that make me a truck though? Now, I'm not only feeling ill from the thought of guzzling gasoline but it looks funny. I guess I'll stick with the 'i' for the time being. I slept on the hammock because it was tooo hot to stay inside even with the AC on.

hi me :) <-- Little Brother's contribution to the blog. Hello Little Brother.

Shabbos day was quiet. Shul went on forever and finally when it was over I headed Home and we waited for the Feldmans and the Miskins to show up. Lunch was interesting to say the very least. As certain people eyed each other warily over the cholent and Eli pulled out cleavers and big sticks. We weren't overly sociable to everybody who came to the door - but it wasn't our fault. Sometimes - you just don't want certain people in your house. After the meal we shmoozed (which I must admit was quite nice seeing as I haven't really spoken to Maayana - well... ever. And I haven't said more than two words to Avigdor in a really long time either.) Then I slept on the hammock and tried to decide how to proceed with a certain project that I am working on at the moment. (You know, trying to be all cute, sweet and unforgetable. It's hard sometimes - but hey, sometimes it's worth it.) Went to Ora's for some shteiging and shaleshudes.

Now Shabbos is over. But, it is Rosh Chodesh. It's also a short week because Shavuot is Thursday night. Does this mean that we don't have work on Thursday? Because that would be great - maybe I'll get back to the beach ;) Anybody wanna join me?

Alright - I'm off. I have a long awaited date with Brenda. You know - quality sister time.

Kate and Leopold here we come!!

I wouldn't mind a little 1876.

Any gentlemen out there?

You know where I am.

:)

Friday, May 26, 2006

Sand is NOT for Eating...

THANKS SIS!!! I really really really really really (have I mentioned REALLY) enjoyed. Even with the sand flying, treasure collecting, sunscreening with a glove and everything else - I had a great time. And I think we got some color. I mean, we were in the sun (even when we were in the shade...) :)

So everybody out there who hasn't caught on yet - today I went with my big sis and the munchkin to the beach and it was amazingly fun!!! Besides for the fact that I finally made it to the beach I got to spend quality time with Rays (and I promise to start trying to talk as much as my words do - but I'll try to slow down a bit so that everybody can understand me. Hehe, you sure this is a good idea?...) ;)

Shabbos is on its way! Little brother is gonna be around. Lunch tomorrow is going to be quite interesting as we're having guests. Motza"sh will be a movie date with Brenda (and anyone else who would like to join us. We're going to watch Kate and Leopold.)

I'm getting quite excited - after such a fun morning I'm hoping that things will just keep going up and up and up!!

Have a great one everybody!!!

Thursday, May 25, 2006

"Would You Stay, Would You Stay..."

Yeah, the same song has been on repeat for the last 9 hours. I can't help it. Alright, I admit it - we DID listen to other stuff, but that's only because I still can't get new music onto my Pod and we went grocery shopping so I needed something to listen to. We even stopped by Savta and Saba's place. (Like I said, I needed something to listen to.)

YAY YAY YAY!!! I have plans for tomorrow morning!! I AM SOOOO EXCITED!!! WE'RE GOING TO THE BEACH!!! YAY! YAY! YAY!!!!! Thanks Sis!! I'm majorly and totally excited!!

We're not going to make it into Jeru tonight even though it is יום ירושלים. (For everybody who doesn't know - today and last night all festivities were held in honor of יום ירושלים because that way the partying is done waaaaay before שבת.)

The week seems to be ending on quite a high note. I've spent time with friends, I'm finally getting out to the beach, I went swimming and I even baked!

If anybody wants some cookies - I made waaaaaay too many. Peanut Butter (as per a friend's advice) and Sugar Cookies (because they are just too yummy to pass up!)

Tonight still has a BBQ, movie and general madness on the agenda.

I am crazily and deliriously excited!!

YAY for things working out!!

It's about time... :)

Wistful Thoughts of a Sensitive Girl...

Well, as usual Sammy has managed to find just the thing that fits the situation. Though somehow it only serves to strengthen my resolve. I will not yield.

Daniel Bedingfield sings on his latest album a song entitled "Wrap My Words Around You" and it is an amazing song. Ok, well - you may not agree but we like it. The words are well chosen.

Today is יום ירושלים and I am hiding out in בית שמש. Go figure. I guess I should go into The City seeing as I'm not doing anything else today.

I feel slightly guilty for my behavior. It was cruel of me and I know that. I really did it as 'payback' after a fashion. But, it was unjust of me. "Look but don't touch..." - it's a hard one. And a cruel emotion to play on. Sorry.

Well, I didn't make it to the beach and probably won't.

So much for my dreams...

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

My Pillow Just Smells Like A Pillow...

And my blanket just smells like a blanket.

Today was novel to say the least. (That is if you couldn't tell from my previous post.)

Though I went to sleep after 1 I still woke up at 6:30 and started my day. On the bright side - not having nightmares did make the five and a half hours of sleep seem more refreshing than usual.

Chilled with Sas and Sam. Went on a shopping spree and managed to get 5 new shirts (Yay for shirts that fit!!) Work was psychotic. I got to leave early and there were no voicemails. Made it Home in time to throw a bathing-suit into my bag and head out to the pool. Sara was there and Brenda and Michalie too! We swam and swam and swam. Then we treaded and worked out all of our major muscle groups. Then we headed Home on foot. On the way I FINALLY got the ice-cream that I had been craving all day (all because I had to buy one for somebody else. But I FINALLY got one of my own - and it was YUMMY!) Sara came over and I practiced my homework (and so, tonight the room smells like lavender.)

Now we are chilling around the table. Sara is sleeping over, and for some reason Brenda is still awake. Eli is here (but when DOES he sleep) and Freddie the cous-cous maker too.

I am tired. Quite tired. And covered in massage oil and chlorine. My hair is a wreck and I really did want to take a bath but somehow I seem to have missed the chance. It's alright though. I had a good time regardless.

The question is whether or not to go swimming in the morning.

I want my pillow to smell yummy again. But, my best bet for that would probably be to shower and then go to sleep after asphyxiating Sammy with some purple stuff.

I like the purple stuff. It really is the Lori smell.

I've made it all my own and it fits.

And so the weekend begins...

It's Not Tonight Yet...

So the question of the afternoon - after the Advil is - Why can't I type in English and Hebrew together? I mean, I speak in Heblish, so why not type in it?

For the record - I DID enjoy myself last night. Quite a lot as a matter of fact. :) I wouldn't mind doing it again in the near future (hint hint...) (Don't worry Rays, I'm not REALLY thinking about it. Remember? That's the deal...)

The Shopping Spree this morning was quite successful. And I even got to chill with Sas!

Some people are crazy and stam. Never mind. Scratch that thought.

Yes Sis, we are indeed quite a pair. Insane and outta our minds - but that is why everybody loves us. At least that's what I keep telling myself. Oh yes, I was gullible. Haha, you didn't REALLY go to the beach! But you did get a nice screen tan. And no dear - it is NOT Thursday. It's only Wednesday. But you WILL miss me tomorrow... :)

I think the Air-conditioner has emerged victorious.

More later. If I make it. Just two hours to go...

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Help Me Sis! I've Fallen!!

So this morning was a lazy one aside from my shopping spree to Super-pharm. I needed a new color nail-polish. So I like Pink. So sue me. :P

Tanya didn't wind up coming over but I did speak to her.

Work was work. Made a slightly BIG mistake - but it honestly wasn't my fault. And yes, I did own up to it, after all I did make it.

Thanks for the heart-to-heart Rays. I really do appreciate it - even though trying to discuss a topic like that beween phones ringing and runs to the printer do complicate matters. I'll figure it out - eventually, and yes, I DO intend to laugh about it a few years down the line.

Thought tonight was going to be a 'same-old' but for a change things actually worked out (I must admit, much to my own surprise.) Aside from getting to hear Sammy play her composition, I actually got to see a movie. Very educational if I do say so myself. (And yes, you are capable of the unimaginable. Good job. I was quite impressed.)

I almost slept on the hammock but after cleaning up I decided that it just wouldn't be fun all alone (well, last time I DID share it with Sammy.) So I headed inside and now the time has come to sleep and dream.

Tomorrow morning tune in for a shopping spree in town with Freddie. (Yay for new shirts that actually fit!!) Followed by five hours in bedlam. The stunning finale will hopefully be a candle-lit interlude in the basement bathroom. *sigh* I'd better make a new music mix for this one. I'm gonna need it.

So pull out the bubble-bath and salts.

Relaxation - here I come!!!

And a long weekend!!!

Hey Rays, enjoy the beach! Three hours of tanning?! You lucky gal! ;)

Monday, May 22, 2006

Wanna Play With My Balls?

Well, that was the quickest זול פה shopping that I've done in a long time. It was also the latest. And I marvel at how much people were buying. Though we did make out like bandits, I mean, we got basically all of the groceries we needed. Ok, so we did need conditioner and we didn't get any (cause it all smelled ucky) and we didn't get bug spray (though we did debate the topic) and we didn't get chalva (because who needs calcium anyway?!) BUT we DID get two brand spanking new spiky balls. One is blue and one is pink and they make a nice pair I think. (Hehe, that rhymed...) Anywho - all of my friends are invited to come and meet them - I might even let you touch them... ;) (No Sammy, I do not allow petting, caressing OR fondling.)

Alright - this is staring to sound sketch and Shosh is connipting as she reads what I've typed over my shoulder.

I'm off to shower. Gotta get that stupid dirt ring off of my ankle sometime - and I don't want to waste time in the morning - so what better time then before going to sleep?! Anyway, Toffee hates it when I try to snuggle with him and I'm all dirty from gallavanting around the city...

*Sigh* hopefully tomorrow will bring better tidings and I will hear from people who seem to have forgotten about me. (Yeah, I know - I shouldn't have sent that stupid message. But, I'm a pathetic paranoid girl so I did - so deal with it!!!) Silly moron. Never mind - I've changed my mind about finding a new name for you. The name fits - though I am sure that there is more underneath... Alas, I suppose I'll never get to find out whether or not my hunch was correct because I never get to see you anyway. Have your fun and just try to remember to call me at some point before you leave the country.

And what I said about slamming the door, don't leave me hanging and though I'd never be able to lock it if it were closed, if a draft comes in - you'd better believe it's going to get shut.

Sis, I really do want to go to the beach with you and the munchkin. But I have prior commitments and priorities. Boy oh boy, sometimes 'life' really does stink. :(

I Speak Too Quickly?!

Alright, so I do tend to speak quickly. I guess it's a habit I formed when I realized that in order to be able to say everything that I want to say in a short amout of time - well, you've got no choice but to cram and speed-it-up. So, I do. :)

School was school. Work was work. I dislike the post-office runs and the new guy freaks me out. On the bright side - I usually only have to go every other day AND it gets me out of bedlam for anywhere between 10 minutes to an hour...

Tonight Shosh has a 'practice' session and so it is going to be a late night. In addition, we've decided that we really DO need to go shopping so we're going to 'hit' the grocery store after her 'client' leaves. (Well, it'll only be somewhere in the vicinity of 23:00 - so it'll be early yet.)

Maybe I'll see Tanya in the morning. She might come pick up her stuff. I think I'll ask her if she can think of any pancakes for me as I am getting fed up with my situation (or lack thereof.)

My 21st birthday is steadily approaching. I can't escape it. (Please don't leave comments saying - "well I'm going to be 22!" or "But I'm SOOOOO much older than you" or anything of that nature.) This is just my 'silly crisis' at the moment. You know, the little stupid thing that I can't change but it's something to gripe about. (Which as you know - knowing me - I am GOOD at and always seem to do.)

Well folks, it is looking a little more clear with every passing moment that this week will be as undisturbed as I had originally anticipated. I am still going Home on Wednesday night after work for my 'extended weekend' - and I am still hoping (stupidly at this point) that we will actually go to the beach on Thursday morning.

I do feel accomplished though. This week I managed to do some homework, clean up some stuff, finish my book, spend time with Nootch, spend time with Sassy, spend (some) time with Shosh, I was in touch with both Becca and Debs (though I do intend to spend some more time with them (even if it is virtual.)) And I even called Tanya!

I've been busy. I'm impressed. And, my hair is a mess. I braided it this morning to get it out of my face and I neglected to put any gel in to keep down the frizzies - so the frizz has escaped and it's all-over the place.

A friend suggested that I do a 'stream of concsiousness' last night and that at the end I should "choose the best sentence and scrap the rest" - So, I did. This is what I came up with - though I honestly can't decide whether or not I like it:

"But still in the dark a light remains, a candle's flickering glow. Though shadows long and down it burns and soon the light will go."

It's a wistful sort of thing. It can either mean losing hope or it can mean moving on - so either it is sad or it is happy. Come to think of it - it is more sad. But sometimes the only way to get to the happiness is through the hard-times. Right? I mean - like a friend always reminds me, "You can't fully appreciate the light if you don't experience the dark." If you never feel the cold fingers of pain and despair, it is simply inconceivable that you can fully appreciate the greatness of the good.

Sunday, May 21, 2006

Love, Rifts & Laughter...

Well, let me begin by saying - starting off the morning by playing with a 74 year old woman's feet is not exactly the most exciting activity. I'd rather give blood or go to a crowded party than do it. Seriously, I mean - I'm going to get through stazh because it is stupid not to - BUT, it's still really really icky.

As much as my job drives me insane and I wish I could spend more time with friends. I do like what I do. And NO - I generally do not answer to Lorelai and no Lori is not short for anything and NO do NOT call me by my middle name. The ONLY person who can get away with that is my Saba.

It's amazing how complicated this stage of life is. I know that every stage comes with its own tests, tasks and the like but really - I have a funny feeling that the one that I am in now is the most life-changing and complicated to fulfill. Besides deciding on a future and a direction for the rest of your life to follow you're supposed to find one person to spend it with - of course, considering we're living in a world with how many people that is NOT the easiest task. *sigh* Sometimes it just seems impossible. Then of course, I remember R' Taub telling us that something hard is something worth striving for and that if it isn't hard then chances are that it isn't REALLY worth it. And I wonder. Is that true? I mean, some people are just blessed and DO get things more easily than others. But, who am I to judge what 'easy' is, I only know what is easy or hard for myself. People are fascinating - they do not realize their own self-worth and can project it by being either to arrogant or to self-depricating, each one is infinitely different yet they can share so many things, some are so selfish that they can't see past their wants and desires while some are so busy trying to help others that they wind up hurting themselves simply because they refuse to accept the reality that they are only human.

To be able to help somebody is an incredible thing. To teach somebody something is an enlightening thing. To reach out to someone and see that you have made a difference is an inspiring thing.

I only hope that I merit to find the needed inspiration in order to enlighten and accomplish the incredible.

Wish me luck...

Note To Self:

Scrap Wednesday night's plans.

Easiest bet I ever won.

I don't mean to complicate things.

Please Smile.

I'm off to work.

Saturday, May 20, 2006

I Spot A Sam-wich!!!...

"Tofu Tochacha" - ok Daddy? Spiritual enough for you?!?

Shabbos was really really nice. Friday night was great. After the meal the four 'older' siblings played cards. We started with Moron - I mean, President and switched over to ERS at some point. Either way, we didn't walk to Aviv and we still went to sleep at almost one in the morning.

Woke up on time for Shul. It was pretty quick and as usual I was freeeezing. The Silas bar-mitzvah emptied out our shul and the whole Kehila was invited to the kiddush. Of course, rather than wasting time going to the matnas we headed Home to nosh on the peanut-butter-less rice krispy treats. :) Then a quick nap on the hammock before our 'light lunch' followed by z'mirot and then another (extended) nap on the hammock.

Late in the afternoon Ora came over. We played with our teddies, and shmoozed till Shabbos ended.

After Havdala Sammy made some Minestrone soup while I made a batch of garlic knots. Three cheers for Melava Malka (especially when it's yummy like this one...)

On this weeks agenda - Stazh, Work, Pep-talks, Shteiging, Shopping (for groceries that is), Arts & Crafts and of course a last-stand.

Hopefully I'll make it to the beach this week. It is a quick one. Yay for the last week of the month!! Come Wednesday night, I am free for the weekend.

I hope everything works out...

Friday, May 19, 2006

"You'd Better Shape Up..."

"...Because I need a man, and my heart is set on you..."

You've GOT to love the movie. I mean, it's a classic. Though I must admit, I am always a bit disturbed at the end when they both decide in their own ways to change so as to make the other happy - which though touching - just seems so wrong. I mean, changing attitude is one thing - but turning over and becoming a totally diferent person... I'm not sure whether or not I agree with that. It just feels like going against everything that I believe in. Don't get me wrong, the key to getting along with people in general lies in flexibility. However, being so flexible that you can put your whole belief system aside and 'become' somebody new just to please somebody is still a level beyond my rational understanding.

On a totally different random Friday tangent, I have been itching to have a 'home-grown' water fight. Like the ones we used to have on Oxford Court. I mean, we used to just all grab pots, buckets, water bottles, windex - hey, how'd that get in here?!? and lots of water and totally drench each other, right in the kitchen!! Of course, cleaning up would always take a while because as soon as we pulled out the mop, somebody would always start pouring again... *sigh* The good 'ol days. We probably just stopped because there's no room to really run around here. I mean, we used to go around and around the island in the kitchen and the kitchen table in figure eights. But, there just isn't anywhere to go around here.

Water fights are so much fun. Especially when you get people who aren't expecting it. Of course it's always more fun if you can drench them by surprise and then as they reach for you, you dance away laughing crazily... (Note to self: there is more to this train of thought, but it will NOT be published here - refer to Diary Book #8, page 177, paragraph 4, line 2...)

Shabbos is coming. I'm not sure if anybody is Home this week. I mean, Nush is and me n' Freddie are, Ora probably is too but I don't think Little Brother is going to be around, and Shan is stuck on base... Alas, we shall have to make the best of a lonely situation. Maybe next week more exciting people will be around. At least, I'm hoping they will be. I suppose it's better this way, I can go and visit Saba and Savta tomorrow afternoon. I haven't done that in QUITE a while.

Have a great one everybody!

p.s. - Sassy, why didn't you ever call me?!?! I'm here for you babe. You know where to find me if you need me... (I'll even wear a skirt with pockets today, so that I can have my phone on me for in case you call.)

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Dorothy Smith is Showing Her Teapots...

What exactly is going on this week? Today the security guy was MIA - BUT - The random chayal on the bus wanted to play with my hair. (I turned him down though... figured that was my best option.)

I ran into Nush at TM but he disappeared, something about not wanting to sit on the floor of the bus with me. :( He didn't want to have a picnic but, I'm a nice Lori so I'll look for that Toblerone bar for him because I wuv him soooo much (well, he WAS my first husband after all...) And Sammy will make him cookies because she's a good Freddie after all.

Work was actually enjoyable today (first time in a while) probably because I was swamped with work. I LOVE being busy and under pressure, it keeps me motivated and on the move. Of course, worrying about not being able to leave on time due to the workload is SUCH a rush. ;) Ok, mebbe not.

I think I might have plans for next Wednesday night. I'm hoping that I do anyway. Now I just have to decide how to incorporate a movie, romantic dinner and a make-out session into one evening. I mean, that can't be too difficult. Right?! Maybe I'll suggest something unorthodox and we'll just chill at my house. Hehe, I mean - we DO have the hammock on the roof (and a pretty garden to boot.) I'm sure I can manage to hook up the speakers and get the computer set up too. Though that does pose a problem where the grass is concerned... Hmmmm, this is going to be complicated. Silly boy - always causing me problems. *sigh*

We went out to Sheinfeld for dinner. Yay for felafel and deep fried fries!!! Sammy went swimming and I went shopping with the crazy lady. I danced through Mister Zol listening to the music that was in my head (well, I did have my I-pod with me...)

Tonight's plan consists of more fries, more music and of course a 'girls night' showing of Grease in the basement...

I think I'll bring the jump rope along. After all this noshing, I'm sure gonna need it.

Otherwise I might not have amusing stories about random guys next week and as we all know I need some amusing stories to keep this thing funny...

Right?! Right.

Last Random Sidenote of the Night: We tried to pick up some really adorable chick on the way back from the grocery store - but she didn't want to get into the car with us. Guess we scared her... ;)

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

While Waiting for My Prince...

I have found a new ingenious way to entertain myself.
http://weboggle.shackworks.com/
I am so excited.
Just a few more rounds and then I'm off to bed.
Toffee really really wants to snuggle and I am all for it!

Abnormal Program Termination...

Well, today was like a blast from the past. I spent the morning lazing around and doing housework. I left early with an empty back-pack and stopped at Machane Yehuda to do the fruit and veggie shopping. At work the bosses are all back - so everything is back to normal - even the familial screaming matches and silly joke telling. We even listened to 'Kidnap the Sandy Claws' (my new FAVORITEST song.) After escaping from the craziness of trying to clean up other people's messes and finish other people's jobs because they didn't do them and left them for me because it was easier for them that way, I met up with Nuch and we went out for a 'cheap dinner date' (my personal favorite - salad, pizza, ice cream... You know, the good stuff.) Walked back down Yafo and did the remainder of the grocery shopping (well, what ever I could carry in my hands anyway...) and now I'm back on the ranch.

I guess I should put everything away...

But first, my _______ story of the day -
(I left the blank line because I'm not quite certain what the appropriate word would be to best describe the experience.)

So, every few months they change the security guards' shifts around so that they can guard at different times of the day? Well, I'm not exactly sure why they change them around but as soon as I get used to one they switch and it is soooo annoying. Anywho - this newest guy is quite a character (to say the least.) Today while 'checking' through my overstuffed backpack (I DID go to the shuk, remember?!) he stumbled upon my jump-rope. Then we struck up a conversation about the health benefits of jumping-rope and how it's a great thing to do. Before he got around to inviting me to come and jump-rope with him I grabbed my stuff and started to make my get-away. As my bad-luck holds true, I didn't have a hand for my phone, as I tried to make one by shoving other stuff into my pockets and reached hopelessly for it he picked it up and handed it to me with a smile and a flourish while chiding me jokingly and saying "you wouldn't want to lose that, how would people call you..." Needless to say; I smiled, grabbed the phone and ran.

Now that I think back to it - it wasn't as bad as it could've been.

At least he had a kippa on.

Yep, that was my novel experience for the day.

Maybe tomorrow I'll go to the other entrance...

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

"Love Waits For One Thing, The Right Moment..."

I'll try to keep this one light and floaty (they seem to get a better response.)

Woke up this morning with the scent of bonfires gone-by heavy in the air. Helped Sammy do the word puzzles in the newspaper then headed into Jerusalem. On the bus I saw all of Sammy's friends - especially the Woof.

At the office we filed and filed and filed. At least the boss is back so there was some work to do.

Tonight is going to be long and quiet. Shosh won't be home until almost 9 and I think I will knit or color. I haven't decided yet. Though, I could curl up with a book...

A BIG thank you to a friend who gave me a gift and in doing so provided me with THE perfect music to listen to this morning on the bus. It made me smile and I think it would be safe enough to say that it made my day. I know most people wouldn't approve or would wonder - but trust me when I say that, the soundtrack from "The Nightmare Before Christmas" is a great 'pick me up' I was listening to it on the bus and trying not to laugh too loudly as the halloween spookies devised their plot and hatched their plan for kidnapping The Sandy Claws...

Monday, May 15, 2006

Bonfires, Friends & Wine...

Class this morning was interesting. We are supposed to be preparing for 'stazh' by giving full massages to one another in class. This is supposed to help us establish the 'flow' of the movements and keep the entire procedure within its time-limits. Sadly, I don't practice half as much as I should so I am in pretty bad shape when it comes to 'flowing' and 'timing' too.

I left the office an hour and a half early. It was a bad day there. At first no computers, Then when they worked there was no 'server' so I couldn't even work on what I needed to do.

Made it Home with plenty of time to spare before going across the way.

At the Ampi was the usual. Our kehilla built a bonfire and we all sat around shmoozing. Poppa Green brought the guitar, Judy brought her banjo, there were hot-dogs, potatos, onions and marshmellows aplenty. Basically, as is our custom, we sat around and sang and simply enjoyed the beauty of spending time together as a community. Of course there was the home-made wine that was passed around. I think I might have scared Eitan (unintentionally, but still - maybe meeting me for the first time davka tonight wasn't a good idea...) Spent good quality time with Vivi and the nieces. The potato was yummy. I lived up to Uncle Shalom's marshmellow roasting standards - he woulda been proud. (Wow, I miss those ski trips.) And as I lay in the grass staring up at the sky I realized, there is so much to be thankful for.

Now back at Home I am listening to Sammy practice piano. It is a midnight recital and it is beautiful. The sonata, the fantasia and especially (my personal favorite) the ever evolving Sammy Piece.

In a movie (that was really a waste of time though in theory the plot was great!) there is a discussion between two of the characters and one accuses the other of siding with the 'enemy' and thereby killing his own people. He states that he has only killed ''as many as have tried to kill me." He concludes by saying, "It is the natural state of any man to want to live.'' He is refuted however quite harshly by her, as she explains to him quite sharply that, "Animals live." And that, "It is the natural state of any man to want to live free."

What level do we live on? Do we keep ourselves down on the base animalistic level or do we strive to elevate ourselves? It's Mrs. Smiles' 'noodle experience' - do we make the bracha and make it a Holy noodle or is it just 'food'?

I must admit, as much as I kvetch, it is nice to have friends. People who are there for you when you REALLY need them, especially when they know that you need them without you having to ask. You know who you are and I know that you are there. Thank you for being you and thank you for being there. You keep me sane (or as sane as I can be.)

And yes, we DO have a date for next time. NO excuses. I owe you BIG-TIME and I intend to spend a GOOD - LONG time with you. Hope you don't mind. Hey, maybe we'll even get the chance to do a pj party? Hehe, you bring the efelants and I'll provide the teddies. :) Whaddaya say partner? Deal?

Alright, I'm off to listen to the music and enjoy the smell of the bonfire that lingers in the cloth of my sweatshirt.

Fire and Water are opposite ends of the spectrum but sometimes I have a hard time choosing between them.

I know, I need to go to the beach and have a bonfire there too. It's brilliant. Maybe Next Thursday (you know, the 25th.) because it's the last Thursday of the month and I am FREE!!! Maybe I will finally make it to the beach...

Wouldn't that be nice?

But I REALLY don't want to go alone.

Alas...

Beyond Despair - Afraid to Hope...

Ever have one of those moments? Ever have one of those hours? Ever have one of those days?

Ever have one of 'those' consecutively for a month?

I feel like I have.

Nothing seems to go right anymore. I can't be happy because I'm always too sad. I am always so sad because I miss being happy. I am always tired and I feel the negative weight of the world on my shoulders. No matter how hard I search for the good and I search for the light, it eludes me.

I feel like I am playing a losing game of cat and mouse only I am the mouse who is trying to catch the cat.

This is not going to have a happy ending.

I can tell.

More later - after the fires and some brooding in the moonlight. Later, when my clothes carry the scent of smoke and all that occupies my mind is the hypnotic vision of the flames and a lullaby.

Maybe then things will be more clear.

Though, my hope is failing.

I feel I am losing.

Catch me.

Please.

Sunday, May 14, 2006

It's Written in the Stars...

This morning Mommy drove me into the city. I had my first 'Stazh' class. (Basically, all that means is that I practiced the art of reflexology on some poor old lady. Actually she was 74 and very nice, but the point is - I did it and if I manage to do the same for another 6 weeks I will receive my certification and can then move on to web design and technical writing courses so that I can quit my job (where I earn 'nothing') and start making 50-100 shekels an hour too! Sounds good to me and all it requires is skill, patience, dedication and a 'good eye' - I think I could fit those credentials and criteria.

Work was (if you hadn't noticed my comment above) novel. I spent two hours on the floor filing stacks of papers, one and a half hours entering data into a makeshift database that I am attempting to construct for obsolete information from 2003 that we (for some reason which I fail to see) 'need' to keep and an hour doing nothing. Yes, I left 1/2 an hour early. It's not like there was anything to do and frankly I had a date and wasn't in the mood to stay there one minute longer.

Freddie came to the office at 6ish. I provided her with a chair an numerous 'sudoku' puzzles (which incidentally can be found online at www.4puz.com.) At 6:30 (just after the little old man offered to buy my apatment) we headed out into the wild yonder to blaze our trail. Along the way I picked up a new Shabbos shirt (though the machine was broken. I mean, there was something wrong with the card?) And then we headed over to a quiet little place where we ate and shmoozed. We straightened out facts and now everything makes sense. Our next stop was a stroll to Gan Ha'atzmaut (along the way we ran into some Miskins. They are so adorable!!!) in the park, we did what we love to do. The sky was overcast but the stars were beautiful nonetheless. Seeing as we were so close we decided that after all this shmoozing we could really use some Divine inspiration so we headed to the Old City for a heartfelt Ma'ariv at the Kotel. On the way out of the Jewish Quarter we ran away from somebody and stopped for a 'midnight snack'? A walk down Yafo while discussing me breaking traditions and the funny habits of chayalim brought us to the bus-stop where we caught a bus and headed back to the 'other' side of town.

All in all a wonderfully relaxing evening. Conclusions - boys are silly (even if they are adorable), self-respect is too important to lose, ice-cream is yummy, cozy little book-store/cafes are GREAT places to shmooze and most importantly - it is GREAT to have a sister for a friend.

Freddie - thank you for making my day.

I love you.

Saturday, May 13, 2006

Keep 'Em Laughing...

Shabbos was, as expected, quiet and laid-back. Friday night was chilled. After the meal Sammy and I spent a good long while shmoozing with Shani. We spoke about coins (heads & tails), shoe's soles and clock's faces. We strolled out to the rose garden and enjoyed the views though the iriya cut back all of the stems so some of the beauty was lacking. Nonetheless, the was a full moon and the weather was delightful. Finally, I had a close encounter with some vile tasting pink stuff and decided to go to bed.

Made it to shul on time. It is always FREEZING in there. You'd think they'd have figured out how to work the AC by now, but I guess not.

Lunch was a drawn out affair. Though I did manage to prove once again that I may look cute but really I'm evil. :)

Then I retired to the hammock for yet another Shabbos afternoon spent lazily in the sun.

Woof came to visit (and study for a test with Sammy.) She's gonna be head-counselor at Achdut this year. Those kids are going to have an AMAZING summer!

For the record - if somebody has a question regarding me, you would probably do best to ask ME about it rather than demanding information from fellow onlookers like yourself.

Ora came over and invited me to accompany her to Sheinfeld. I went with her and we made it there and back in record time.

I caught up with Daddy and parts of the Clark Family, so I joined their group as we headed down to the end of Haarazim for Shaleshudes. Have I mentioned what amazing people the Clarks are?! They're a great family and I enjoy every chance I get to spend time with them. No wonder Sammy loves piano lessons and babysitting. :)

Ever been in one of those uncomfortable situations where somebody wants to ask you questions that you don't want to answer but there are other people so they can't? Well, I had to sit through a number of those today.

A new week begins and I do not know what to expect.

Hoping to see certain people and spend time with certain friends.

At least I have plans for Sunday night - Me n' Freddie are going on a date.

But, I am free any other night of the week.

So, call me...

Please.

:)

Friday, May 12, 2006

A Bath Scented With Rose Petals...

I'm feeling slightly ill but that could be due to the 'snack' that I ate at 3:00 this morning. I'm not sure, but something tells me that NO doctor would say that french fries, chicken and copious amounts of ketchup are a wise or healthy thing to eat at that time. I mean, night is supposed to be when our bodies rest and rejuvenate. Alas, one night without a 'cool down period' can't kill me. Right? And anyway, I was over-stressed and REALLY not having a good time. Wow, this is the first time I've turned to food in that kind of mood in a REALLY long time. I guess that's a good thing.

Speaking of cutting back - yeah, the numbers are changing (again) just ten more and I'll be at my original goal. Woohoo! What's the grand total thus far? Well let me do the math - yeeeehaw!! A whopping 65 down and just 10 to go!! It's taken a good four years - but like I've said before. I am patient and don't mind waiting for a good thing.

Now I just have to REALLY get personal with the yoga mat and find the muscle. :) Talk about inner strength.

I'm going to make this computer thing work. It doesn't pay to return it so I'll just have to make the best of the situation. Granted the WHOLE fahtunkenah thing is in Hebrew (WAAAAHHH!!! I need somebody who speaks the language!!) and everything is backwards and there's no touch-pad (so I'm going to get carpal tunnel in my right second digit) and it is HUGE compared to my old one and the screen resolution is lower (so I can't get that 'clean' sharp look that I loved) and it doesn't have any of my stuff on it and an and... ok, I guess I'll stop there. What was I saying? Oh yes. I'm going to smile and nod (the way I do for everything else) and try to be a 'big girl' about it. At least I have a new computer. At least I have a computer. Many people don't. Even if I'm not happy with it - I guess I'll just grin and bear it.

That seems to be my lot in life. I want something and then I get it only NOT the way I would have expected. It has happened any number of times in the last few weeks. It seriously makes me want to cry. Things like that are only supposed to happen when a person tries to get what they want through ill-means. What did I do wrong? I don't remember doing anything overly drastic or terrible. I'm just trying to get through my twentieth year.

Shoot. I'm going to be 21 in just 49 days.

I am dreading it. And my hopes of going away for the weekend, well, let's see what kind of hellish turmoil those bring about.

Hellish turmoil. It seems to follow me. Along with dischord and disharmony.

I never thought I would live to see the day.

I've always been such a quiet little girl.

Well, there's a first for everything.

Good Shabbos everybody.

Thursday, May 11, 2006

I Don't Belong Here...

Dinner wasn't so bad. I mean, it could've been worse. At least the food was good.

Tagged along with Sammy and Little Brother. Felt like a tag-along. (For those of you who don't know the feeling. Don't try it. It isn't fun.)

REFUSED to go with Shani. Even though she tried to stare me down.

Caught the last bus Home.

Got my finger mashed in the door frame when SOMEBODY tried to be helpful.

Opened my new computer. It is ugly as sin. Square, boxy and squat. Uglier than I ever was. Ok, so it has a big screen. Ok, so it runs like a charm. It has NO touchpad and only a joystick. It is HUGE. It won't fit in my backpack and after paying for it I don't exactly have the funds to buy a special new backpack for it.

I just want my Inspiron 4150 and all of my data.

I just want a hug and for somebody to tell me that everything will be ok.

There I go. Deluding myself again.

Nice things like that don't happen to me.

And Little Brother - for the record - you think it was easy for me to say no?! It broke me into a gazillion little pieces and hurt more than you can imagine.

And once again, for the record - I still have not cried.

Unshed tears hold five times the equivalent pain. At least, that is how I feel.

The question is, when will the time be right to just let go?

Maybe things will be better in the morning.

Who am I kidding?

Oh yeah,

me.

Puppies, Pancakes and Wishes...

I would start with my usual - 'It's Thursday already?' thing. But I think instead I shall take a different route.

Thus far it has been an extremely boring day. No calls or texts, I think Shosh is ticked at me (though one never knows) and it makes me feel like I am in the midst of a domestic squabble. Though we are left with the predicament of WHO wears the skirts in the relationship so WHO is allowed to be Witchy and cry? I dunno, I REALLY was in a GOOD mood and she was the one sitting and scowling. I mean, I know she is working really hard and working two jobs to boot - but that is what she thinks that she HAS to do. Never mind, I refuse to get into it. I'm going Home for Shabbos anyway so I have some free time also known as time away from her. (HA! What is free time? All I want is to go to the beach. Anybody want to join me?)

Little brother - my sunburn is peeling so I look funnier than usual. It's a shame you won't be around to see it.

Tonight I won't even be getting Home until late. Supposedly the family is coming into the city to go out for dinner in honor of Eli's birthday. In addition, I no longer have claim to my bicycle.

In other exciting news - my computer situation is on its way to being rectified. If all goes according to plan my new computer should be at Home waiting for me when I get there. Now I just need to figure out how to ressurect the data from my old hard-drive and shtoop it to my new toy.

Of course, this is all banking on the fact that things will work out the way I would like for them to. HA! Who is laughing now? I'm not. Things work out for me only too rarely for me to have any real faith.

Wow. I just realized, I am beyond being a whining brat. I am so spoiled rotten that I don't know how people can stand to be in the same room as me.

Well, I may be broke but soon I will have a brand new beautiful computer.

It's kind of a shame though. I would rather have had my old one.

Maybe next week will be better.

Hey, I'm allowed to dream.

More Later...

You know,

The conclusion.

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Black & White Cookies...

Last night I anticipated QUITE the boring night. Of course, I wasn't prepared to sit around doing nothing so when an opportunity presented itself, I grabbed it. I went shopping with Shosh and Rochel. We were looking for particular a kind of clothing. (Have I mentioned how adorable Rochel is?!)

AND, while we were out, I even got a phone call that I wasn't expecting. Talk about pleasant surprises. And no, I don't really mean to laugh at you - it's just, you're so darned cute - have I told you that recently?! Well, for what it's worth, in my humble and unimportant opinion - you are. But, don't let it go to your head. ;)

I LOVE walking. It is one of the greatest stress relievers and if you go with a friend it gives you time to catch up on each others lives and with 'what's going on's. I finally got to shmooze with Shosh last night - it has been WAAAAY too long. (And for the record, I AM sorry I haven't had a normal week for such a long time. I know, four nights REALLY isn't too much to ask - but things keep 'going funny' as Debs has been known to say.)

'Going funny' - an interesting phrase. What if I am already funny? Never mind.

Got material for yet another project. Hmmm... guess I shouldn't be lazy this week and should finally take the convertor back down to the sewing machine. It'll be worth it. Well, that's what I think anyway.

This morning I felt positivley peachy. I woke up warm in my bed and realized, the sun falls right on my bed. It felt delicious to be sleeping in a square of sun, so I decided to procrastinate getting up until as late as possible.

Met up with my favoritest and onlyest Nuch and we strolled into town for some coffee and shmoozing. (Thanks for listening, and I am SOOO looking forward to being little old ladies and chuckling about the past together - though I have a distinct suspicion that we will laugh uproariously rather than giggle in a dignified way. Well, as long as we don't snort. Right Sammy?)

Speaking of Sammy. Umm, Miguel - why did you not bring me pizza? Why did you not bring me fawafel? Why did you not come visit me? Oh yeah - it's all Brenda's fault. Silly Brenda! Why didn't you go to school?! You messed up my evening :-P Thanks for nothing and there go my plans for this evening. WAAAAHH Freddie!!! I certainly hope that you at least did the laundry. *Sniff* I'm gonna need some clean clothes for this weekend. (For no reason aside from the fact that I like to have CLEAN clothes to wear. And NO - just because I fit into your shirts doesn't mean I need to take them all. Though, you do have some cute ones. Don't worry Freddie my dearest, soon enough I shall be abducting your skirts as well.)

Someday.

But until then, take comfort in the knowledge that my WAIST is the size of your HIPS.

Yes. Hehehe,

someday...

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

M.I.A.? Where'd you go?

A second post to use up my last 30 minutes in the office.

Today was the ultimate of boring. (Actually, I've suffered worse) I mean, I did get to hold one of the cutest shmooshy little babies. And I even did work - (yeah, even a little counts as SOME!)

Mommy got me nuts. SO, I can afford to be a little crazier than usual.

Tonight is going to be just as boring as today was.

Have I mentioned how sad a cell phone that never rings is? I can't believe I just wrote that. I HATE phones!!!

Maybe I'll shpatzir around the city all by my lonesome. I've got nothing waiting for me back at the apartment. I mean, Shosh won't be home until almost 9 tonight and I certainly have nothing to do.

This is a sad sad pathetic life I am living. But hey, it's a life. Could be worse. Could be better. Could be a lot of things. But, it isn't.

Guess I'll just have to make the best of it.

*sigh*

Why did I say no the other night? Silly me. Another missed opportunity.

Add it to the list.

*sigh*

Forgotten?...

Just an update because it's 7:30 in the morning and I can't sleep anymore.

Well, last night as I left the office I got a call and decided to go Home. So I caught a bus and was soon back in Bet Shemesh. (Convenient how that works, no? I NEVER coulda done THAT in Jersey.)

Aside from being a breeding place for some gazillion different types of germs, fungi and sicknesses - I was reminded once again why indoor pools can be nice. Sure, it does totally ruin the fun of adapting to the temp. and it's kinda like swimming in an oversized bathtub (with a ton of other people) but, it is a pool either way. If you aren't getting my drift - I went to the Reishit pool for the first time. (Granted, it was too sobering of a thought to realize that for every sixty-seconds that I was in the pool, I was paying 1/2 a shekel.) But, truth of the matter is - every once in a while, you sort of need a release. Mentally I can get it by writing, emotionally by crying and physically - well, physically I tend to get a high when water is involved. I'm not sure why, but the sheer beauty of it never fails to amaze me. A lot of people are not comfortable in the water, they don't trust it. But, I have no such reservations. As usual, I won every race and worked out all of my muscles. My back-crawl has fallen into an abominable state but I had no problem breathing front-crawl on a four count. (Even after a whole year. YAY!)

Back at Home, I noticed that the sun-burn on my shoulder has hit the 'peeling' stage. Which wouldn't disturb me, but it's sort of a funny color (purplyish) so, I guess I'll keep an eye on it.

What else what else? Well, we made salad dressing for Brenda, roasted marshmellows, talked, I practiced my 'homework' (on both Eli and Sammy) and we danced around the kitchen (which we haven't done in a VERY long time.)

This morning Sammy and I were supposed to go swimming (again) but I think it would be better to refrain. You know how 'over-doing' something can kill it? Yeah, I'm a little worried about that. But I do really want to go. Alas. There will be other times. Maybe Thursday night, seeing as nobody more interesting has asked me to make plans with them.

I feel stretched, relaxed, content(enough) and have I mentioned that the numbers are going down again? Sorta good and sorta not. I mean, I don't mind - BUT - I only hope I can stop them when I need to. It'll be a test of will-power and brains. *sigh* complications.

You'll probably hear from me again later seeing as ALL the bosses are gone now and I have 5 hours to FILE this afternoon and tomorrow and Thursday and all the way until next Thursday... (Of course, I'll be filing alone because after all - 'other people' have 'more important' things to be doing...)

Alright, I'm off to get dressed so that Freddie N' Me can go buy some mushrooms so that we can make breakfast. I just LOVE lazy mornings...

Monday, May 08, 2006

Sunburns and Massage Oil...

Have I ever mentioned that I used to love the scent of lavender? Next to vanilla and roses, it was a favorite. Sadly, a year of working with the essential oil has ruined my passion for it. It is just too strong, too smelly and too darned, well, I'm not even sure what to call it - it is just TOOO MUCH!

I was informed today, by my teacher, (as I lay on the table as a 'body') that contrary to what I may believe, I am NOT fat. (Did you hear that Freddie? I'm not fat.) I am however quite muscular. I'm not sure if that was supposed to make me and my unstable self-image feel any better or what. However, I'll keep jumping-rope (carefully of course, so as not to re-injure my poor pulled muscle) and utilizing my 'alone-time' with my yoga mat. We're getting to be quite good friends and I will soon be back to my old pliable self. (Three cheers for being able to reach past your toes and stay like that for a while!! Yay for being able to sit on your knees and be able to get your back flat on the floor!! All these exciting things to achieve. And then of course, there is the pain...)

The omer is almost half over. I'm STILL trying to decide whether or not to cut my hair. I've heard 'yeahs' and 'nays' however, I'm still not sure how I feel about it.

I have the greatest older sister in the world. And be careful, I might just take you up on one of your offers and spend a Shabbos with you. :P

Work is BORING once again. But, we're making the best of it. (See? I'm using my time wisely, to blog...)

My Sarcastic Quote for the day: "I love being yelled at, I'm so tense that I don't actually register the pain from the shouting until afterwards and if I'm waaay too overloaded - I can actually just bounce the pain and not feel anything. I think that I am numb."

Did you know that touch is like super-glue? It can bind things together that shouldn't be connected. Like once, I actually superglued all of the fingers on my right hand together. Then it took a few hours to pry them apart. Of course, Mommy wasn't Home (which was good cause she woulda killed me for playing with super-glue - but still... it wasn't a pretty situation.) What did the story have to do with the point? I'm not sure. Aside from the fact that it showed how touch can stick the wrong things together. Of course, it's fun and truth be told, it feels really good - but in the long run, unless the pieces are meant to be stuck together - I cannot understand why people would want to get stuck in predicaments.

Whoa, this post is taking quite an interesting turn. Actually, it is more like I am babbling. Ok, so I AM babbling, but you know what?!?! As I just explained to my desk-mate/older sister I HAVE 2 HOURS left in the office for today and NOTHING TO DO!!!

Have I mentioned that I HATE being bored?

Have I mentioned that I still want to go the the beach?

Have I mentioned that I absolutely adore all things Crayola?

I spent almost three hours last night coloring - I'm gonna need to raid Saba and Savta's house to get some new coloring books. I think I finished off the last of the pages last night.

Should I share with you my biggest 'kvetch' for the day?! People who have their heads on straight. You know, people with their priorities in order - who know what they want and what they don't want. And who want to do the right thing even if it is going to take a long time. (Though, I have a bad feeling that I am one of these people.)

At least, on the bright side - I am in my right mind. I think. But, I think my mind is confused. Because whereas I write with my left hand I can only throw a ball with my right. Ok, so I'm slightly ambidextrous. What mind does that make me in?!

AHA! I've got it!

I'm out of my mind.

That's it. I'm out of here.

Guess I could go file those papers.

Or maybe I'll watch Raizy 'color'

For the record, I like hearts too.

But I don't like it when mine gets broken.

Wow - that was pointed.

But honestly - my heart is just fine. I have my life (for another 100 years anyway) and as a side-point I need to find a new nickname for the moron. (Cause though I call Shosh my Dunce lovingly - somehow, 'moron' just isn't overly friendly. And out of curiousity, are we friends? I'm just a little confused because Thursday night wasn't pretty and we haven't spoken since then - which is really my fault. And, have I mentioned that you have an impeccable sense of timing? And lastly, you can feel special - I haven't been overwhelmed enough to write a poem (even if it was a bad poem) in quite a while.)

Alright, now I am really out of here.

Just an hour and a half left until I can go back to the ranch for the night.

What should I do tonight to entertain myself?

Maybe Shosh will consent to play Boggle.

I certainly hope so...

Have I ever mentioned that I used to love the scent of lavender?...

Sunday, May 07, 2006

Liquid Refreshment Anybody?...

The morning started off pretty well. I mean, I woke up(ish) when Sammy's alarm went off at 6:30. I lazed in bed till almost 8:00. (Lazy lazy little me...) I spent an hour and a half at one of the infamous 'Misrad' places. This time in an attempt to get reimbursment for my studies this past year. There was a slight misunderstanding, but what is money in the long run? (Never mind. Forget I asked that.) Finally everything was signed and we were outta there. At Home there was nothing to do so I took me and my sunburnt arms and we went to wait at the bus-stop.

I have noticed that G-d is REALLY out to get me. I mean, talk about trying my patience and sanity... I have been reduced to blogging at the office (due to a lack of working computers in my apartment) My arms are completely sun-burnt and on top of everything, just to be funny, I have three mosquito bites on my left arm (yes, ON the sunburn!!!) and NO Mommy, I DO NOT want to call the stupid person and I'm not going to - if you do, I won't stop you, but I don't want to hear about it until afterwards. Just tell me when and where and make sure I can take a shower beforehand. OK?!

I am currently bored out of my mind. I have nothing to write (because my brain is in a stupor) I have nothing to think about (because I can't deal with everything and so am on 'stand-by' for the moment.)

I hate being so confused. It drives me up the walls!! At least I have Fringe and Frizze with me. Their little smiles are ever so encouraging (even if their presence does get strange looks tossed my way.)

I hate high-heels. I hate make-up. I hate wearing glasses. ARG!

At least there was one highlight to my day - my Becca called me from all the way Down-Under. It was soooo good to hear her voice (funny messed up accent and all.) I MISS YOU BECCA!!!

And everybody else out there; Hinda, Chava, Adina, Debs, Mir, Hindy, Moushkie, Chan... - It's been a while since I said it, but, I MISS EVERYBODY SOOOOO MUCH!!!

And then I had an extremely disturbing and depressing thought - my birthday is in something like 52 days. At which point I will be 21. And that means that ideally (though not realistically) I have a mere 99 years left of my existence on this planet. I just realized that I have already used up 1/5th of my life. Strange to ponder.

Ok, I'm freaking myself out.

Forget this train of thought.

The boss is calling...

I'm outta here.

Saturday, May 06, 2006

NO Petting, Fondling or Caressing...

Shabbos was beautiful. b"H. A balm for my pain, a dressing for my wounds. Have I mentioned how much I love Shabbos? There is something undeniably beautiful about having a day, on which we are commanded to stop everything, take care of ourselves and get a little closer to The Source of ALL Things. Like R' Taub taught us, if we weren't commanded to do it - only then would we not be free. It is a beautiful thought and one that I revel in every week when Shabbos comes around.

Friday night was laid back. Shul, Shmooze, Meal, (sorely needed...) Sleep. Nothing more exciting than that - but everything flowed so well that I almost felt tranquil.

Shabbos day was just as relaxing. Though I woke up at 5:30, I was quite chipper. (Chipper. Hehe, great word.) Woke Sammy, woke Nuch and headed out to Shul. Daddy was running early and had finished his coffee so I walked with him and we discussed the ignorance of American college students in terms of Middle-Eastern politics. Davening was nice (though the parsha(s) was/were long.) Lunch was a quick affair (but we sang nonetheless.) There was a squabble for the hammock but in the end, I was granted the privelege of my favorite spot.

(Now for the down-side...) As much as I love the sun, I am NOT used to it (because I seem to spend my day-time-hours indoors and my night-time-hours out.) And so, two hours of peaceful slumber (though appreciated and refreshing...) had some pretty dire outcomes. Namely - the upper portions of my arms turning beet-red and quite burnt. (Guess it's G-d's way of saying, sleep inside or wear a shirt with longer sleeves next time...)

Yeah, so basically, I am quite sunburnt (which has not happened for a good 7-8 years.) And, boy oh boy does it HURT!!! (Guess this is a good enough reason for a dose of Advil...)

Ora came to wake me up and with Nuch and Libby we headed back to her house for 'shaleshudes' and singing. I'm so glad we did. Gave us time to spend together and it's always easier to let Shabbos go when you are with friends who appreciate it the way you do.

Now I need to go bathe my arms in vinegar baths and cut off a BIG leaf of Aloe to smear on afterwards. Tomorrow morning, adventure with Adela as I attempt to get the reimbursment for school.

Quick Hakarat Hatov section: Thank you Debs for your e-mails, through everything, the only tears I shed were when I read your beautiful notes to me, I've got the cape and I'm ready to go but first I need to say, thank you for saving me. Thank you Little Brother for entertaining me today. Even though you wouldn't read to me, I still enjoyed watching my peace-loving little critters beat each other up. Thank you Freddie for NOT tipping over the hammock, even though you tried to steal my lower leg, upper leg, knee and... Oh, forget it!!! You tried to take the whole darned thing!! Thank you Nuch for coming - as always, t'was a pleasure to see you, speak to you and spend time with you dahhhhling. Sorry I couldn't be much more of a help to you. And last but not least, thank you Scary-Monster for making me smile, giving me advice and offering to help.

Shavua Tov, Smile and remember...

Good Pancakes and Puppies are more elusive than gold.

Though, I am not wishy-washy I am patient and I like to get what I want.

Hehe, I sound like an impetulant, spoiled child.

Who am I kidding?

Oh yeah,

me.

Friday, May 05, 2006

To Waltz Among the Ruins...

First of ALL - for the record - The last Thursday of May is the 25th and Shavuot is actually the first Thursday of June. So, Essentially, I have two Thursdays off in a row. YAY! Maybe I'll get to go to the B______... (Even if I do have to go by myself.)

So, last night I received an e-mail from a friend in response to my post. This friend is very dear to me and I realized upon reading the letter that I wrote the poem more for ME than anyone else. Though, it is meant to speak to everyone and certain people in particular - it's convoluted and its double entendre helps it go both ways.

I marvel at humanity once again. We honestly do not realize our value. Our mere existence can touch others in ways that we can not imagine. In my mind, I am just a girl. A plain old, stick by the rules, boring sort of person. Of course, that is not true or rather that is true but only to an extent. Words are finite. Putting feelings into words limits them. That could be the reason it helps me focus everything and consolidate my emotions.

I made a desicion last night. Though, I must adimt, I've made it before - and though it seems to always be the plan - the execution is the hardest part. In the response that I sent back to my friend I stated simply, "The sun will come out tomorrow. I am simply waiting for tomorrow. Though, I am realizing that truthfully - there is a chance however slight, that tomorrow will not come. For that very reason I think I shall learn to sing in the rain. Sometimes I suppose you just need to get up and go with it. If you can't control it - don't let it control you. The raindrops may fall, the thunder may crash and the world may be torn asunder - but I shall sing and dance like it is a bright spring day. At least, that is my goal." It is lofty, I know. It is a lot to ask of one person, but being the perfectioninst that I am, how can I ask any less of myself?

I am still out to save the world - that is my ultimate goal. I have yet to figure out the means, but the end (though far off in the distance) is firmly established in my mind. And, if being human means only being able to get as far as I can get - I will not let that drag me down. I can not afford to. I will put my all and then some into it - because that is me. In essence. Don't worry though, I do follow my own advice and take care of myself as well.

I know that if I do not have me - I do not have anything. I wouldn't change me for all the money in the world. I have worked too hard to become myself. The only thing that could make me change, was if I realized a failing or a shortcoming in myself - as I would then try to fix it.

I want to be the best me possible. It will be a reality one day. Of that I am certain. But, it takes time as does everything that matters and it will be hard as is everything that counts.

For now, I'll stop trying to dodge the raindrops. I love the water, I love the rain and for Heaven's sake I love me!! And now that there is all of this loving going on, I'd like to share a special something with you. I hope it isn't disappointing in its simplicity - but I've found that the spoonful of sugar is sometimes the only way to go...

Easy Coffee Cake:
2 cups Bisquick Pancake mix (I've included a 'make your own' sort of thing for those of us who are chalav yisrael, or just don't have bisquick...)
2/3 cup milk or water
2 Tablespoons Sugar
1 egg

Basically, just mix it all together and pour it into a pan (usually a 9 x 1.5 inch round pan)

Then for the topping (the best part!!)
1/3 cup Bisquick mix
1/3 cup brown sugar
1/2 teaspoon margarine
Mix it until crumbly. DON'T over-do it. You want crumbs, not a smooth mixture (I speak from experience) If you'd like, use a pastry cutter... :)

Sprinkle the topping on the cake and bake at 350 F (170-180 C) for 18-22 minutes(ish.)

The make your own mix goes as follows (you need to double it and a bit to make the cake, but you'll figure it out...)
1 cup flour
1 Tablespoon baking powder
1.5 teaspoons salt
3 Tablespoons shortening (oil, margarine, butter... whatever makes you happy or whatever you have in the house...)

Have a great Shabbos! I am so glad that it is finally here. Though the week flew by, it took a very long time to do so. I'm off to file memories and to clean up the mess I've made inside. I hate cleaning, but seriously, it is SO much nicer when everything is where it belongs.

When things are clean, (and there are no cats in the house) you can even leave the door open. Alas, the felines ruin everything - and so, I shall have to get by with the window alone. It is open as always. And the sunlight is pouring in.

I'm off. Enjoy.

The end...

Thursday, May 04, 2006

For You. You Know Who You Are...

My Pathetic and sad attempt at voicing conflicting emotions...It doesn't do them justice - or maybe I am just a silly girl. Prose is not a strong point and I wonder why I write at all - but like you said, it's a 'healthy' way to get it out. But I must admit, not so sure anymore, though I never was sure to begin with...

When spoken words do fail and the night has fallen down
When thoughts are left unspoken and in fantasy you drown
When the darkness seems unending and from all held dear you shy
Don't turn to me and ask me, I truly don't know why.

It was a fleeting thought, a daydream gone to far
It was akin to a firefly and the light of a shooting star
It was a hope in the darkness - a reach for some light in the dark
But it cannot be is what you said and proved it clear and stark.

You wanted me to hate you, you wanted me to leave
You wanted me to love you and for that I grieve
You want to live your dream out - to make everything 'just so'
I think you just don't see it - and so you'll never know.

Confusion stirs among us, an enemy a foe
Confusion is a feeling and one that I well know
Confused indeed and then again I have become undone
And all because I was too 'right' and could not be much 'fun'

A shame I think, a crying shame to suffer so much pain
To throw yourself once and again and get caught up in the game
It need not be like this you see, though pain cannot not be
Alas, you're lost and so confused and there's no end in sight for thee.

'We' you said, but 'you' you meant - for 'us' and 'our' too
Who were you thinking of I wonder, though I don't wish that I knew
Too many double meanings, to much play with words
It is a game I can play well, when I choose to play at all
Words are a danger, thrown right they hurt and more
But the saddest words are wasted words for they never do get far

And still I sit and wonder, I ponder and I think
A fleeting thought, A wisp of thought and from it I shrink
I cannot bear to think it I cannot bear to try
And so I will do as you implored and will not wonder why.

My conscience overwhelms me I listen to its voice
Though truth be told - I'd be insane to take the other choice
I'll be here as always - though I won't wait forever-more
And - one day as I said, if you were to knock upon the door
And ask again I promise you a plea I'd not ignore

Worry not oh Prince of Thieves though you may not understand
Everything is quite alright and my heart is well in hand
For 'our' sake I'll let you go though you were never mine
I am not at all stupid, nor am I so blind.

Not fair to you not fair to me - life is hard you see
How did all this turmoil begin over nonexistant little 'we'?
I thought that you were joking when you first said anything
Sure that you were mocking and trying just to sting

I'm still not sure - though that may hurt, I mean no disrespect
Words you see are imprecise and so is their effect
To touch - a barrier I dare not to cross or let fall
It cushions me from the harshest of the pain, the hurt, the fall

You wanted me to go away - to spare us both the pain
So I'll comply but you know well, I won't do it again.
Be a friend for now - that's good. That's all I really need.
Though I would like more if there could be more - 'just a friend' is good indeed.

Go away and have your fun and in due time you'll see
what you want and what you need and who you need to be
Journey safely I implore, on this dangerous expidition
To find one's self is a long long road and an awfully trying mission.

And if you need a friendly ear, and silly chitter-chatter
Or someody to listen when something is the matter
Don't be shy and don't hold back I'm good at quiet-time
But this ball is in your court and I don't want it in mine.

You have my number, you know where I live. And, though I know how busy you are and especially now with everything that is going on - For now, I will wait. You decide this one. I won't bother you unless you want to be bothered.

Just one thing - please, if you DO decide to disappear - please be sure to say goodbye and slam the door on the way out for good measure.

My Cardiac Muscle is All in Knots...

In the last 24 hours, I have been tested in every way possible. Mentally, Emotionally, Physically and even Spiritually. I think I passed them all, even though some were harder than others.

I didn't sleep last night (for reasons unkown) so I had no problem at 6:30 when I got out of bed and decided to start doing stuff for the day. I caught a bus and was soon in Jeru. My test was delayed half-an-hour, which everybody but me knew - so I headed back to the ranch to chill with Shosh for a bit.

Yes, THE Anatomy final. Well, it is over. That is about all that I can say. I finished all 130 questions in about 50 minutes and was the first to hand it in. Everyone else was stressing about it, but when it comes to things like this I can't be bothered to stress out. I figure that there are bigger and more important things to worry about. (And I am once again reminded why it is that I am NOT in college.)

Work was quiet. I got to shpatzir to the post-office and shmooze with all of my 'friends'? Then I got to file ALL of the newspapers. Finally I got my comupter and I spent the remainder of my time shmoozing with my 'desk-mate.'

Have I mentioned that I have a new sibling? Today I officially adopted and was adopted as a sister. Don't worry Sis, I won't give away your identity. But, thanks for listening and understanding. Thanks for the advice. And most of all - THANK YOU FOR BEING YOU! (Which we agreed is a good thing, because I am like that too. Only, I manage to put my own wacky spin on things. At least, I try to.)

I would like to say, for entertainment value alone - today I got more phone calls and SMSes than I have gotten in the last two weeks combined.

I'm Home now. It's Thursday night again. We just made jewelry, and I used the dark-blues. They are so pretty. Earrings and a choker too. My onlyquestion is, "What the heck do I wear them with?!?!" Guess I'll figure it out at some point.

My plans for tonight are still fluid. As in - I'm not sure what is going on. I don't really want to sit around the house (again/anymore.) I need to get OUT!!! (Not that I don't like being Home. I LOVE being Home. I just need some fresh air and not surrounded and inhibited by walls.

My kvetch for the evening - I have discovered new muscles and they all ache. (This is why I'm not supopsed to play catch with a football with teenage boys.) AND - I have a funny feeling that my newest cardio-vascular/aerobic exercise has only exacerbated the problem. Maybe I should forgo the jumping rope part of my night-time routine... Whaddaya think?

Shabbos is coming. Menucha is coming for Shabbos. Ora will be Home. Ora is having a friend over for Shabbos. Freddie will be Home for Shabbos. The only sad sort of thing that was unexpected is that Shani won't be Home for Shabbos. Alas, we shall survive. Actually, I intend to have a WONDERFUL time.

And who knows - maybe we'll go to the beach in the morning...

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

What am I? A Chipmunk?!

*sigh* - The candles are lit, The lights are off, The music sounds softly in the background. I breathe in once. Twice. Just to compose myself - or so I think. And then the words begin...

Howdy everybody. I'm thinking (again/as usual) and I'm trying my hardest to make them happy thoughts. Sadly, today wasn't as much fun as I had hoped it would be. Don't get me wrong, I had a good time - but still...

OH YEAH!! First and foremost - HAPPY (JEWISH) ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY BLOGY DEAREST!!!

Yeah, so I woke up this fine morning at 7:00ish. Went to the Shul breakfast and picked strange orange-colored fruity things with Ora (which we subsequently fed to an unsuspecting public.) After clean-up we made a quick stop at a 'shiva-house' and then headed back Home. Mommy announced (much to my disamy) that all plans were cancelled. No tiyul, no picnic and most of all - NO beach! (ARG!) So I settled myself down and prepared myself for a boring afternoon. I spent an hour and a half studying for Anatomy (yes everybody - all you doubters - I actually studied!!!) Then I tried to sleep until Freddie pulled me outta bed and put my sneakers on my feet. "We're going to the Ampi!! Come ON!!!" - Anywho, we spent about an hour (or two?) tossing around three footballs, kicking a soccer balls, flinging four frisbees and giving our muscles a total workout. (My poor deltoid and trapezius - I am in pain. *ahem* - hint hint wink wink nod nod nudge nudge - Shosh... hehehe.)

The Preisers showed up a little after 5:00 as did Saba & Savta - and Mommy outdid herself. A beautiful table was set and the 'feth-tival thpiwit' was well felt. Of course, she made that 'warm chocolate' cake (yes it IS a Pesach cake - but it is soooo good and gluten-free!) Sammy, Mommy, Raquel and even Shui helped me practice my homework. (Batsheva will be sooo proud, NOT!)

Once they left Brenda, Eli and I 'jumped-rope' (for purely cardio-vascular reasons...) until I decided to go watch a movie with my Freddie.

Of course, as usual - as soon as I start to get back on track, G-d steps in and decides to have His fun (which I don't mind, cause I trust Him. BUT, it sure is getting to be a pain in the rear-end!) After a day of no contact with friends I suddenly have two SMSes waiting for me.

All I can say at this point is - Sas, I did it. I know your uncle would be 'so proud' but I am not dealing well. It was too complicated. There was too much to say and the words to say what needed to be said simply were not appropriate. I almost backed out. I would have backed out. There is NO reason I had to go through with it aside from the fact that - deep down - I know it was the right thing to do. And so, I have hurt myself but even more so, I have hurt another and that hurts me even more. It was all that I could do not to dissolve into tears - I was literally 'that close' and it is still gnawing away at me. As a matter of fact, I am still shaking from it.

The fact of the matter is that - I do care. Of course, by virtue of the fact that I care - I leave myself open and vulnerable. I am inviting emotional ruin into my Home and I know that I am doing just that - and yet - I can do nothing differently.

If you fall off of the face of the planet. If you disappear. If.

What a terrible little two letter word. If.

What should I do?

What would I do?

It is all the timing really. The timing stinks. You are going away. You are going to have fun and meet new people and see new places. Adventures for stories and memories too. I however, will still be here. At Home - where I have always been and probably always will be.

You heard what I said even though you thought you didn't.

I meant it.

You know where to find me...

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Raw Falafel, Gallstones and Super-Green...

I went into Jeru with Sammy this morning. She had an 'efes' so I caught the 7am bus with her. We were in Jeru in no time and I headed to my apartment where I saw Shosh, cut out the material for my new skirt (which I'm not so crazy about) and sat around doing nothing (which today consisted of laundry and dishes.) I did make it to the bank (yay for Lori!) then I walked to work carrying my overstuffed backpack the whole way. The office was pretty quiet. I did a lot of nothing and a little of something. The bosses are all going away over the next few weeks so I am going to be spending A LOT of time filing and once the filing is finished I suppose I will knit, beat my high score in Destruct-o-match or even (dare I say it..) twiddle my thumbs.

My boss graciously allowed me to leave half an hour early. I dashed to catch a bus to TM and made it there, inside, up the stairs, out the door, onto the leaving bus and all with only a minor catastrophe to my favorite Barnes & Noble bag - (may it rest in pieces.)

At Home I had time to hear all about what dinner was 'going to be' then we headed out for a 'tfilah chagigit' at Shul. Basically, it was just lots of extra Tehillim in the spirit of the day. I figured, extra Tehillim can't hurt, right?!

Back at Home Mommy was making Falafel balls. Israeli Salad was underway as well. However, I was informed that there was NO bread in the house. No, wait. Not NO bread. Rather, there was no bread suitable to eat falafel in/with/on or even - next to. So, I volunteered myself for a project. At 10:00pm I started making Pita. To sum up the story - at Midnight everything was ready. Pitot, Israeli Salad (or whatever was left of it after Ezri 'picked' and 'noshed' on it), Home-made deep-fried 'chips', pickles, Chumus, olives - yeah, you get the picture.

Daddy fell asleep as did Avi and Brenda. Sammy felt too sick to eat (something about squiggling up her insides by jumping rope) and Eli was out at the concert. Nonetheless, Mommy and I enjoyed a full dinner. Well, I did enjoy it at the time - but truth of the matter is, I feel sooo disgustingly full now. I'm not quite sure what to do with myself.

I suppose I should go to sleep. Though the signature at the bottom of this post says 11:59pm it is actually 1:00 in the morning and I have to be at the Shul by 8:00ish to help finish setting up for the 'breakfast' thing-a-ma-jig.

I'm hoping we wind up doing something fun tomorrow. Though now that I tried some of Daddy's' orange-aid' I'm a little scared about 'what will be' - alas, I suppose I will find out tomorrow.

I hope it helps.

I want to talk to certain people. I want my computer. Here we go again - I want I want I want...

That's it.

I'm outta here.

To sleep I go.

G'nite

and Happy Yom Ha'atzmaut!!!

Monday, May 01, 2006

School, Work and Sudden Changes of Plan...

Class. I was a body. I worked. I left.

Work. I was bored. I went to the post office. I was bored. I filed. I was bored. Sammy came bearing gifts of the Black and White variety. We were bored.

Left work early and walked Sammy to TM. Decided on the spur of the moment to go back to Bet-Shemsh for the Yom Hazikaron T'kasim. Had a kumzitz on the floor of the 416. Mommy made a yummy dinner and Brenda made 'stars' - yum yum!

Went to the Tekes at the Shul and saw 2 films in the spirit of the day.

I was supposed to go back to Jeru on the last bus. I don't think that is going to happen seeing as the last bus will be passin in a few moments and I am busy typing this. I guess I'll just go in early with Sammy and cut out the material for a new skirt, and then when I get Home tomorrow night (again) I will just have to sew it and voila - I will have yet ANOTHER skirt for Shabbos.

Will I never tire of this game?

Nah, I doubt it. It means I have lots of pretty skirts for Shabbos.

*sigh* I wish I would get an SMS or a call so that we could talk and just get things worked out. This is getting old and I would really just like to get it off of my mental 'to-do' list.

Stupid Moron.

Maybe tomorrow...