Today should have been MY day. I actually gave my current employers the 'two weeks notice' that I will be leaving my office. They were not pleased (to say the least) but it is for the better. Though, I will miss my co-workers.
After work I made my way to TM where I met Shalom and we took the bus back to בית שמש. I got 'presents' (what is blush?) and speeches and went to bed relatively early.
I can't help it that I have big dreams and high standards. I was taught to strive for the best (within reason) and to give my 'all' to the things that I do - whether or not I will receive recognition for them. I was also brought up not to expect recognition for every little thing that I do.
All around I think that I am a pretty sensible person. I do not often do dangerously reckless things and I am not in the habit of doing stupid things.
Yes, I can be loud and friendly, but I also have a very quiet side that really just wants to curl up into a ball and disappear from the world.
Maybe when everyone stops telling me that I am shallow, judgemental and that my standards are nothing more than overly high ridiculously fanciful notions - then I will stop feeling so terrible.
After all, I only expect from others what I expect from myself.
I do not expect perfection - but it's damn near close...