Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Fuzzy Head Alcohol Syndrome?

Fringe decided randomly (as these desicions often are) that the house was lacking in sugar. Upon opening the cabinet he realized that the 95% proof alcohol was running low as well. So, he begged the humans for some cash and decided to head to the grocery store.First he grabbed some dinner (can you find the one he ate? Of course not, it's in his stuffed little tummy.)
Then he hopped into the purse and demanded to be taken to the store.
It was rush hour (at 11:00 p.m.) - even on the express lane.So he stopped to check out the tomatoes. They need to be 'just ripe' for him to bother with them.
Purim is coming and Fringe has never been able to resist shiny things, so he just had to check out the cellophane wrapped goodies.
On the checkout lane, he tried to swipe the 5 shekels from the cart of the people ahead of him. Unfortunately, the coin-shmidjamajigit worked so well that he was unable to make off with the extra gelt.
He waited patiently for the ringer-upper lady to ring-up the stuff...
(check out that cute little beer-belly.)Though, he played innocent when the chashier asked him for some ID.
"What's THAT doing here?" :)
The walk home was pretty cold and he was glad he had brought his mittens with him. Of course, a couple of swigs of the booze helped to warm up his fluff. (I reckon that is the reason he looks so darned happy in this last picture...)On a more serious note, the lesson of the day is that, "Destiny has a lot to do with it, but so do you. You have to persevere, you have to insist." When you find something that is worth fighting for, something that you truly believe in it - hold to it and don't give it up without a fight.

Only you can live your life. If someone else is making all the choices and decisions for you - then you are not living. Understand opinions and listen to advice, but at the end of the day - you need to choose what is right for you.

A Daily Goal: Learn lots and make good choices...

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Live, Love and Achieve Great Things...

Got to work late this morning. It was a BORING as heck Tuesday. Chaya got me some pizza and I spent most of my time getting work from little ms. boss 1 and little ms. boss 2. Of course, they both got annoyed when it reached a certain point and I got sick of doing their work so I dumped their own responsibilities back in their laps - but what can I say? Sometimes you just have to stand up for yourself.

After work I took a stroll down King George with a friend and he walked me to Kikar Shabbos (stopping along the way for some chocolate - which was actually quite good, I might add.) Then I met up wit Chaya again and we headed off to a shiur on Ovadia. There were 3 fascinating speakers and afterwards Shosh and I walked back to The Ranch.

Freddie showed up a little before (or was it after) midnight and then ate some stale rugelach.

That's all for today. Tomorrow is Wednesday and that means there are just another 16 hours in the Hell-hole to go for this week anyway...

Monday, February 26, 2007

"With all answers leading to you..."

Work was an ABSOLUTE bore today. I had to do three other peoples work (as usual) and Chaya and I eventually got sick of it all and went out to find some lunch. I think I spent more time fleishig today than I did anything else.

Eventually I got sick of sitting around doing nothing so I ran out and got a quick manicure. :) That started my 'girly' shopping spree day.
After work I met up with Shosh and we went to explore the shuk in search of jars for chocolate liqueur that she is planning to give with the cakes for mishloach manot. We didn't find 'the perfect' jar, but I did walk out of the shuk with a really cute little olive oil jug for the counter.
Our next stop was one of the fun earring shops on King George. I found these cutie-pies for Purim. :) I like buggies Brenda!!!
Next stop - Hair-things!!! Check out the FUN colors!!! Ok, well - I think they're fun and 'cool'!
That was the extent of my adventures today. Dinner was yummy. After frosting the rest of the cakes and eating the last chicken soup (in order to make room for the cakes in the freezer) we went to the neighbors and got some 'real' food.

What else happened today? Not much that I can think of. Some sweet messages and some poetic banter. But that about sums it up.

Oooooof, time to go clean the frosting off the ceiling.

Ok, so now we know why you aren't supposed to pick up the mixer before it comes to a complete stop...

Sunday, February 25, 2007

Discussed the Wits?...

This morning I woke up bright and early. Mommy and I went out and I found a BEAUTIFUL shirt to wear to cousin Tova's wedding. It is black and it is hideous looking on the hanger - but, on me... :)

Then I went to catch a bus back to Jeru and Toffee and I got to spend some time talking with Tamir. (Thanks for putting up with me in my ridiculously happy mood!! Much appreciated!) The window-shade was down so I didn't get to watch the view that I love, but Toffee was able to sneak a peek - or two.Work was quiet. 2 out of 3 bosses weren't in and aside from doing two other peoples' work, I did nothing much. Well, that's not true. I spent a good portion of my day shmoozing with my partner and listening to a certain song on repeat...The fuzzy ones were forced to come to the office, as I didn't have time to go back to The Ranch before heading there. Frizzie and Fringe made some random trouble (something about staples in the paper shredder and coffee in the copier.) Toffee on the other hand, practiced his French skills by reading a French newspaper. He's quite the educated fuzz-ball.
Eventually work was over and I trudged back to The Ranch in the rain (in my sandals without socks.) The wind was so strong that I was thankful for the heavy backpack to weigh me down. Finally when Shosh got home we had a quick snack and then started dealing with the Mishloach Manot cakes.They needed to be frosted. Somehow, that became my responsibility...
The truly amazing thing is the amount of stuff that we can fit into out tiny little freezer. Mommy, you would be proud.

For the record, the wine in the picture above was a bottle of Muscato - and NO, we didn't have room in the fridge - so YES, we DID finish it off... :)

Tomorrow is another day and time for more fun and adventures!

Saturday, February 24, 2007

Teeheehee, I do have a nice smile. Don't I? ;)

Shabbos was nice. Sammy's friend Leah was here. Friday night; shul, then the meal and then after playing dress-up I walked with 'Kevin' to Nofei Aviv in the silver ball-gown. Shabbos morning I slept right through shul and after the meal I slept some more. I don't feel rested and Shabbos ended and we are left trying to figure out what to do. Maybe I will take a ride into The City. That could be fun. Hmmm... Maybe.

A Joke for the New Week:

I have a Labrador retriever and I was buying a large bag of Purina at Wal-Martand was in line to check out.
A woman behind me asked if I had a dog (?).

On impulse, I told her that no, I was starting The Purina Diet again, althoughI probably shouldn't because I'd ended up in the hospital last time but that I'd lost 50 pounds before I awakened in an intensive care ward with tubes coming out of most of my orifices and IVs in both arms.

I told her that it was essentially a perfect diet and that the way that it works is to load your pants pockets with Purina nuggets and simply eat one or two every time you feel hungry & that the food is nutritionally complete, so I was going to try it again.

I have to mention here that practically everyone in the line was by now enthralled with my story, particularly a tall, guy who was behind her.

Horrified, she asked if I'd been poisoned. I told her no; I'd been sitting inthe street licking my butt and a car hit me.

I thought the guy was going to need help as he laughingly staggered to the door.

Friday, February 23, 2007

"To be loved, be lovable." ~Ovid

I can't think of anything to say.
Today I let others speak my sentiments... "

Be civil to all; sociable to many; familiar with few; friend to one; enemy to none." ~Benjamin Franklin

"Life's greatest happiness is to be convinced we are loved." ~Victor Hugo

"Nothing gives one person so much advantage over another as to remain always cool and unruffled under all circumstances." ~Thomas Jefferson

"Water is fluid, soft, and yielding. But water will wear away rock, which is rigid and cannot yield. As a rule, whatever is fluid, soft, and yielding will overcome whatever is rigid and hard. This is another paradox: what is soft is strong." ~Lao-tse

"Love will enter cloaked in friendship's name." ~Ovid

"You can discover more about a person in an hour of play than in a year of conversation." ~Plato

Have a splendiferous Shabbos!

Thursday, February 22, 2007

"A Madness Most Discreet..."

~ Shakespeare (Romeo and Juliet - Act:1 Scene:1)

Work was the usual. The weather was gorgeous and I got elected to take a stroll down to the bank. It was a perfect iced coffee and potato chip day. Yes indeed.Back at Home, nothing much was going on. Mommy made yummy dinner of lasagna and mushroom barley soup. Then Brenda, Mommy and I watched Moulin Rouge (yes, this makes it the umpteenth time that I've seen it and YES I still cried at the end.)

Shabbos is coming. Yay!

Wednesday, February 21, 2007


Work was the usual. There is something decidedly odd going on in the office but I am not in the habit of listening at closed doors so I am completely uninformed. (This is not blissful unawareness, it is more like a nerve-wracking not-knowingness.) Things are going to change and in a big way. I'm just not sure that it'll be a good change for those of us who have been working there for any period of time.

I was really looking forward to having 'sister-time' tonight at Kad V'Chomer but Freddie is sick (she even got gimmelim) and Brenda is under the weather so she stayed Home today too. Somehow it didn't make sense for them to come into The City for something as pointless as arts-n-crafts, so we rescheduled for some tentatively fictitious date in the not so distantly near future.

On my way back to The Ranch I stopped for a quick sit on a bench in the park. After the break I was reminded of how much I despise Street Scum - like the street trash punks who walk around just asking for it. Then I made my way to Zol Po to track down some eggs for the cakes for Shosh's mishloach manot.

Random thought for the night - I am sick and tired of having to fight all of my battles. Isn't there somebody who can come and play my champion and defender? I'm so fed up with always being thought of as the 'tough' one who has no feelings or emotions and who is cold, callous and almost brutally efficient at the things that she does.

Oh yeah, that was a silly question I suppose. Especially since 'nobody' can reach my ridiculously high standards and expectations.

Am I being stupid? Quite probably.
What to do about it? I guess let it play itself out.
Why? Because the ball is in motion and I haven't got the strength to stop it.
I'm so tired. Tired of all the games and the nuances.
But there is no good reason to want me.
I am all fault & nothing worthwhile.
Just say it already.
You hate me.
I know it.

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Misdeed Absolved - Crisis Resolved

Well, work was the same old today. Another 9 hour day. Was it busy? Not particularly. Did I enjoy myself? Not really. Something a little fishy is up in the office though and I am not quite sure what is going on. I think the bosses are looking to hire someone new. For when and what I have no clue - but if it means less insane responsibility for me - bring it on.

Walked back to The Ranch and put up the first part of dinner. Shosh is doing the rest and there are rugelach for dessert. (That is of course assuming that Shosh doesn't get a concussion from all of the spices that keep jumping out of the cupboard at her head...)

I think I will go work on my blanket a bit. The old green and blue one that is in the process of being knitted. Yeah, I think I am on the 8th square - just 12 more to go. Here's a picture of Toffee Bear (who is supposedly cuter than me) sitting with my knitting. Well, he's sort of with my knitting - it's more like, sitting near my knitting...
Confession for the day - I miss my Big Sis. :-/
On the bright side - next week... :)


First the old man rode by on a bicycle, he was riding zigzag across the pavement and wearing fuzzy blue bedroom slippers. Then there was the old woman who was offering a pigeon a loaf of bread that was missing the end slice. The pigeon turned up his nose and declined the offer because the bread wasn't so soft and there was an end missing.

Are you familiar with those strange days, where everyone seems to gape at you as you pass by. You know you're not crazy and maybe you are slightly paranoid - but still...

And then, when the REALLY cute Ish Bitachon with the bright blue eyes and incredible smile stops you on Yafo to ask you how you're doing and asks you for your number, what are you supposed to say?!

"Sorry, I'm not dating right now. I'm sick of guys and I hate all the protocol. Maybe after my birthday."

And off he goes, into the bright February sunshine.

And I walk on towards work to begin yet another tediously ridiculous Tuesday...

Monday, February 19, 2007

Save me a curl...

Made my way to work this morning and was in quite a fine mood. Iced coffee was yum and the day flew by. I managed to finish everything and walked both ways. :)

Ok, so we skipped swimming but with Shosh getting some stress-induced bronchitis, I didn't think swimming then walking in the winter air were in her best interest... Instead we went out to the makolet to pick up a bottle of water.

Now I'm drinking the peach flavored water and thinking, "eeeew, this tastes like really watered down fake peach drink stuff."

My fingers are frozen and now I am off to find a ticket for July. I just made a list of the days that I want to take off from work for various s'machot and such. Quite an impressive list if I do say so myself. B"H is all I can say - only simchas. Right? I certainly am excited. Now I've just got to figure out how I'm going to cover the cost of all of this globetrotting...

Whatever, it'll work out in the end.
At least, I have to hope that it will.

Like I said, back to the drawing board and the old familiar sayings.
For tonight I'll leave you with one I haven't used in a long while.
My old favorite of, "Faith, Trust and Pixie Dust..."

Sunday, February 18, 2007

A Virtual Love Affair...

I just enjoyed my first long weekend in a long time. I think that I will like Sundays from here-on-in.

I rolled out of bed at 8 and got on a bus at 10. A cute guy sat down next to me and promptly fell asleep on my shoulder. In Jerusalem I woke him up and headed to The Ranch. With plenty of time to spare I unpacked and then walked to the office. For four hours I did nothing much and then I organized the 'file piles' for about an hour. For the last hour I actually did some typing and then I left the office 1/2 an hour late for some strange reason. I walked back to The Ranch and waited for Shosh to get back. Then we went out for a special Rosh Chodesh dinner and back at The Ranch we are going to watch the Bruriah - Mother Daughter Presentation - from 2005.

It'll be so funny to see the stage I spent much of my high school career on. Maybe there are even a few shots of the chandelier. Guess we'll see.

In any event - it's back to the drawing board. Well, sort of and not really.

You haven't run into any cute guys on Yafo lately, have you?

Just checking. I'd hate to find out that you were hiding something like that from me... :P

Saturday, February 17, 2007

Z'heeee Butttum...

Shavua Tov! Chodesh Tov! Happy Belated Birthday Saba! Happy Early Birthday Mommy! Shabbos was VERY nice. Like, REALLY REALLY nice! Friday morning was spent at the shul setting up the kiddush. Dum and her friend Dina came for Shabbos.

Friday night we got to shul a little late and then the meal was fun followed by Apples to Apples and then after much giggling many hours of sleep.

We got up bright and early Shabbos morning and made our way to shul to set up the rest of the kiddush. The affair was pulled off without a hitch and a bunch of people swarmed my mother to try and convince her to cater their upcoming s'machot. We were so full after the kiddush that lunch started after 1 and then we had just enough time left for a quick Shabbos nap.

Shabbos ended (as usual) much too quickly and now we're finding some melava malka and watching some 'Dirty Dancing' - I've included some pictures below of our 'fun' time making, baking and being. Enjoy!
Shlokit Cake!!! Aren't I just the CUTEST?!
Cupcakes are deeeeeelicious Stuff in the trolley...
Smile mine Freddie-o!
Hat Boxes / Height Givers - (when you put 'em on z'hee buttum)
Pretty Chocolate Covered Pretzels - Till 2 a.m. baby!!!
Happy Dibble! (What else? Even when he's screaming - he's happy!?)
Cucumbers = מלפפוניםs...
Get me outta this trolley. And next time, I DON'T wanna go down the hill...
1/2 Frosted Cookies. Where's the cream filling?
Cooooooookie!!! (We missed you Little Brother! MWAH!)

Thursday, February 15, 2007


Packed and cleaned and made my way to work.

Chaya covered for me, TJ did a happy dance and fell asleep (well almost) and I snuck out 1/2 an hour early with permission to go in at 12 on Sunday and even made the early bus Home. So basically, I'm in a content sorta mood.

At Home, Freddie and I went to (were sent to) do some grocery shopping. Yay for driving in the POURING (and I mean DRENCHING DELUGE of) rain!!! After dinner and a show (by the little wierdos) Mommy, Brenda and I shlepped a ton of stuff up to the shul. Mommy is catering the Moskowitz Bat-Mitzvah this Shabbos, so things are going to be quite busy at Home. First we shlepped, then we poured, braked and I even got to ride in the trolley!

Dum and her friend Dina are here for Shabbos and Brenda and I need to make chocolate dipped pretzels for the party. I have stolen Eli's new sweatshirt and I am sad that all my comfy sweatpants are back at The Ranch. We were supposed to watch a movie and have a 'girls night' but there is too much to do in the kitchen and Freddie is sleeping with the fuzzy little blue monster on the sofa.

Brenda has just offered to 'scoop out mine eyeballs.' - Should I be worried? Is this a threat? I can't tell.

Ok, I'd better go help her before she really does something crazy.

Oh shoot - a chocolate and flour fight?

Hahahaha! Guess I'll need a shower tonite after all! :)

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

"We could be heroes..."

Early this morning Freddie and I made our way out to some random little shul to attend the bris of my new little nephew. The beautiful little munchkin's name is Refael Shlomo. His big brother looked ABSOLUTELY adorable dressed all 'fancy' with his brand-new Kippah! And of course, their Mother looked radiant! Luv ya sis! ;)

It was really nice because our office opened an hour late - due to the fact that everyone was at the bris. Work actually flew by today and most of my time was spent on the phone with Bangkok, the Netherlands and ridiculously annoying people who honestly believe that they are the only people in the world.

After work I went out for some tea in a cute little place I never knew existed. I'll have to add it to the list.

Back at The Ranch I filled my Dorito craving and followed up with a dessert of Mike N' Ikes!

My pondering for this evening leads me down the age old road of "better to have love and lost than to never have loved at all." Is it really true? I've heard the 'yeas' and the 'no ways!' But which is it really? Is it better to "throw our lives away for one happy day" or do we really have to only concentrate on the 'big picture.' Is it worth it to let a moment of what could be 'genuine' happiness slip away in the hopes that another one will come along? Now, I know you're just going to tell me that a moment of pleasure is nothing to get worked-up about (and I don't mean physical pleasure - I just mean that warm feeling you get from knowing that there is someone who really and truly cares about you, understands you and accepts you for who you are) is it really better to never let yourself get close to them because there is the chance that it won't 'work out' or be permanent?

Is it better to keep your distance and keep searching for something else that could be better?? At what point must you stop and just be thankful for what you have and accept it for what it is?

I wonder. Really, I do.

Maybe I should stop reading - it's turning my brains to mush. But the funny thing is, I've been hearing all sorts of real-life 'fairy tales' coming true - so maybe it is possible...

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

"You're gonna be bad for business..."

"...I can tell."

Work was busy and the usual Tuesday crazy type of day. I left Freddie sleeping on the couch and spent a day typing and proofreading and fixing problems that had nothing to do with me. It's funny when people opt not to do things because it's easier to let other people do them.

After work I met Eli at TM and we went out for a quick dinner. He brought me some money and some shoes. Pretty black shoes. black flats actually, with little bows on them. Me - own black flats with bows?! I know, there must be something funny going on.

Back at The Ranch I'm trying to get some laundry done. It's cold. I'm listening to my 4 song mix on repeat again. At least this time I put it on shuffle so that there is a minimal amount of variation to the order of the songs.

Tomorrow morning is my new munchkin's bris. So, it's gonna be an early morning to get out to some random little shul in the middle of somewhere or other. It's so much fun to have no sense of direction! :)

Oooh, the medley is on again...

"Yup yup yup..."

I figured that for my 613th post I should put up something amusing. Why? I'm not quite sure. Actually - I just wanted to put up something funny while I'm still in a happy mood after waking up and before spending a day getting jaded and sad out in the 'real world' - blech, this 'real world' stuff can be such a drag sometimes. But you know what? It's important to focus on the good.

And so, I present to you -
Without much ado -
Fuzzy and blue -

Have a Happy Hop Water Day and enjoy your Tuesday! It's Yom Shlishi already? Little Brother has a day off army - I expect to be bugged! Shosh comes back to The Ranch tonight!! Also, Shabbos is coming and Dum is coming for Shabbos!

Get excited!!
I know I am!! :)

Monday, February 12, 2007

Elephant Love Medley...

I first woke up at 7 this morning and crawled out of my warm bed to turn on the Dud. I walked to the office and made my demands. I figured I'd get fired, considering all the things I wanted, but believe it on not - Mr. Boss Sr. said, "sure, whatever you want!" And that was the end of it. I walked out of his office wondering what one needs to do to get fired from the place! I can't decide whether to be pleased or not.

Back at The Ranch, Freddie made dinner and now we're going to watch The Land Before Time. VEEEERY random shout-out - LOVE YOU LITTLE BROTHER!!! (You're not mean - just slightly evil...) :P

In other news, 'Orange' sent me a message today. Does anyone care to translate - cause it's some sort of alien tounge. The message reads:

"Na etoy nedele v orangeday 100 minut besplatno na zvonki abonentam seti orange. Podrobnosti zapis' po telefonu *4050..."

Any ideas? I think it's a conspiracy plot.

On the plate for this week - boys boys boys.
Aren't we all having so much fun?
I like applesauce Freddie... :)

Sunday, February 11, 2007

Blue Bottles & Ice Cream...

I woke up this morning feeling totally under the weather. So, I called in sick and decided to spend a day in bed.

I wound up going into Jeru with Mommy to help her choose out material to use for table-scaping the bat-mitzva this coming Shabbos and we also went out for a day early birthday lunch...

On our way out of The City we picked up Freddie from the Hopsickall and Brenda from her school at the end of the world.

Back at Home Freddie and I shirked responsibility and watched Moulin Rouge instead. After the movie, bleary eyed and crying, I made my way down to the kitchen and baked up a double batch of Rum N' Spice cookies (extra rum - hold the spice style.) They are for the bat-mitzva too.

Eventually Daddy drove us out to BIG so that we could catch the bus that we almost missed and back in Jeru Freddie headed back to her dorm and I made my way back to The Ranch.

I had almost forgotten how cold it is here.
It's downright ridiculous already.
I am ready for the spring.
Bring it on...

Saturday, February 10, 2007

Kivi, Nony, Meeli & Arye...

I made my way into Jeru on Friday morning and met up with Shosh, SH and Cheli. We went out for pizza and then got ready for Shabbos.

I spent shabbos at Mrs. M's house (even though she is in MerryCa) and I finally got to meet another one of the families that Shosh works for.

Friday night at Rivky's and Shabbos day at Shoshana B's. A niiiiice looooong Shabbos nap and then after Havdala at the neighbors I waited for a bus, shoved my way into TM and made my way to Bet Shemesh for Vivi & Gabi's engagement party. I got there only an hour late and said my 'hellos and goodbyes' then made my way back Home.

Now I need to find all my stuff and get it ready to shlep back into The City bright and early tomorrow morning.

Shavua Tov y'all!

Thursday, February 08, 2007

Roman Monkeys?

I can't remember this morning. I think I was running late.
Work was crazy. I made it through and even left early.

Walked to the trempiadah and made my way Home with Freddie.

My bubble bath has been cancelled and has been postponed until further notice.
I certainly hope the people I cancelled it for appreciate it.
Doubtful - but what can I say?

Now Mommy is being a fiddletwidget (but thank you for making 2 trays of cookies for me.)
Freddie has stolen Ryan and we are supposed to watch a movie.

What movie? Not a clue.
But it's bonding time either way!

Over and out! :)

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

I Have a New Pet Spider...

When I walked into the office and noticed that my Sis wasn't there I started wondering... She hadn't answered my call the night before nor had she been online and usually she warns me if she's going to take a hookey day. "She's having the kid." I thought to myself. Lo and behold, a couple of hours later - that was exactly what had happened. A BEAUTIFUL baby boy! So I guess that makes me an uncle again? :)

In other news, some of my coworkers found opportunities to discuss the general feeling of unhappiness in the office with the management. Then the boss came to me and said - what can we give you to make you stay? I listed my demands and they agreed. It's a long story and quite convoluted but it looks like for the moment I will be staying put. The 'pros' outweigh the 'cons' and in the event that something incredible arises, I can always leave then...

The Ranch is freezing cold. At the moment there is no central-heating and for some silly reason our 'dud' hasn't been working efficiently either. On the bright side - I have lots of sweatshirts, so I'm putting most of them to good use (and all at the same time.)

Tonight's activity - figure out how to work my pretty new camera. It is time. Really, it's going to happen tonight. The battery is charging, even. (That was Dibble grammar for all you 'grammatically-correct' inclined folks out there...)

Tomorrow is Thursday. Quite exciting and it means the weekend is almost here! Yay for Shabbos and only 1 day left to the work week!! We're almost there!


I'm an 'aunt' again!!!
It's a BOY!!!

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Thanks for the Flake Shake Sis...

My morning started off nicely. I saw some Zwebners on the bus and then walked in the rain.

As usual, the office was insane. A pressure cooker of such force that the intensity levels of stress and tension could have made diamonds. I gave up at some point and snuck out with my Big Sis to the yarn store. We are going to start crocheting. (Finally.) I got soft and fuzzy changing pink yarn to work with. Now I just need for Mommy to start it... :)

I left about 20 minutes late and went out to pick up some salad (which I had been craving) and then headed back to The Ranch.

I was supposed to do laundry, (but we ran out of fabric softener.)
I was supposed to take a HOT shower, (but after giving the 'dud' 45 minutes, the water was still cold.)
I was supposed to watch 'Casablanca' (but it's 10:00 and I haven't actually started yet.)

Now what? My plans have all sorta fallen apart.
Maybe I should just take out my contacts?

The quote of the day is:

"Hearts will be practical only when they are made unbreakable."
~The Wizard of Oz

Monday, February 05, 2007

Humility, Hilarity, Humanity...

Can someone PLEASE tell me why this country that I love has stopped selling my favorite coffee?! It's not even a complicated flavor and if I weren't so darned impatient and lazy I could make it myself. However, for some mysterious reason Nescafe' Instant Vanilla coffee has disappeared from the shelves of all supermarkets and makolets in the general area of Central Israel. Of course, I had an agonizing moment of terror and panic that the world at large had stopped production of this (toxic) 'stuff' that tastes so good. Luckily (and thankfully) they haven't so while I was in Merry Ca I picked up a couple of containers - but considering the fact that I drank 3 cups of it today, I'm kind of worried it won't last me very long. (So, if anyone loves me and wants to bring me or send me a present...) :)

Today the office was a nightmare. Two of the bosses weren't in and one co-worker didn't show up. Her boss had left a stack of stuff to do and my boss had left me a stack for me. When my co-worker's boss heard that she wouldn't be in the office, guess what happened. Easy peasy. He just called ME and said, "I'm not in, she isn't in and your boss isn't in so do the pile of stuff that I left for her." Suffice it to say, I literally did work for 2 people today. Looking at the bright side, at least I walked both ways today.

Last story of the night. I stopped at the makolet to pick up some milk and cheese. The total came to 15.26NIS. I reached into my pocket and gave the cashier her options, either 15NIS or a 200NIS bill. She looked at the bill in horror and quickly dropped the 26 'אג. I must be learning how to work the system here. Be nice or be really nice while being evil.

Off to watch 'Cars' and spend some time with Freddie - whenever she gets here...

Sunday, February 04, 2007

"Hey Sis, There's A Bright Side?"

Alright, I'll admit it. When I walked up to the check out line in the grocery store I certainly did look like quite a sight. But for what reason would a seemingly nice looking girl like me be doing in the gorcery store sopping wet and attempting to purchase hot pepper flakes and a bottle of vodka? Ok, so the lady asked me how old I was. But at some point it just becomes ridiculous when both she and the guy behind me on line both snicker after I tell them that I'm 21 and she still demands to see my ID. "Sheesh," I think to myself. "Again?!"

I've got to say, after going to sleep after 3am waking up at 6am was not too much fun. Made the 7:20-something bus and got into Jeru as the skies opened. Simply put, I was wet. Even more so once I reached the office.

After work I went over to my Big Sis's house for some Barney and Bath-time bonding with the munchkin.

Back at the Ranch I had some fun with spicy stuff (I'm still claiming that it was for the sake of clearing our sinuses) and I think I'll go read for a bit now.

Tomorrow is Monday and is therefore - the second day of the week. Or is it the second day of the week because it is Monday?

So confusing.


Saturday, February 03, 2007

"standard operating procedure..."

Shabbos was very nice. Friday night was quiet. I walked up to Aviv with Shani, Little Brother and Matan (who informed me that I would be a lot prettier if I let my hair down - in the literal sense - and that I would surely then benefit from the attentions of 'the boys' as he named them. He was informed by our walking partners that I suffer no shortage of attention and that in the future he should keep his advice to himself.)

Shabbos afternoon was nice. The ט"ו בשבט kiddush in shul was very nice - though there were no wild 'creations' from the Polly's kitchen to grace the tables. I spent the afternoon curled up in the 'big chair' and I made it through 'Till We Have Faces' by C.S. Lewis. I even fell asleep until it started raining on me. Turns out the rain shower was just the $3,000 jacket and a very annoying Little Brother. Then we had an all out water fight which ended with shoes under the bed, a very clean smiley, a dry shower and two VERY wet siblings.

Brenda, Mommy and I watched 'The Devil Wears Prada' and once again I spent the majority of the movie laughing hysterically (to keep from crying.) In a sense I feel like that has been me for the last 14 months. I have been an 'Emily' only I refused to ever give in and wear heels. (And no, the whole wearing pink and earrings thing has nothing to do with work.)

Now I'm back in my room trying to make more important decisions.

Here's a new description of me and the concerns of a true friend:

"...she is sometimes a little too nice. I am just worried she will burn out, but she won’t listen to me."

What should I make of that?

I reckon, in a sense it's a good thing that you don't know the rest of the story.

Thanks everyone for all of the support and love. I really do appreciate it. I'll be ok. I just need to get over these hurdles. And no, I won't stop being me - because it is the quality that we live for, the little things which make life divine and, without the dreams of the dreamers who imagine that the impossible could be the reality - the world would be a sad place indeed.

Shavua tov.

Friday, February 02, 2007

Awake. Barely. Continue. Down.

Being that I have yet to figure out how to use my beautiful new camera - I have no new pictures to share with you this week.

Come to think of it, I don't have much to say today.

Sis, I finally watched Moulin Rouge and it was a trifle disturbing but an incredible story. It's so nice to be feeling all fed-up and alone and to watch a movie with a sad ending. It's the feeling you get when Eponine dies in Les Miserables and when they scatter the rose petals over Beth's bed in Little Women.

W. Clement Stone said, "Bondage is - subjection to external influences and internal negative thoughts and attitudes."

Maybe that is why I feel so trapped. Maybe I really do take to heart what other people say and I am a 'people-pleaser' and so I go crazy trying to please everyone but get frustrated because logic and common-sense have both proven the task of always pleasing everyone to be impossible.

Unless of course I am nobody. Because nobody is the only somebody who can please all of the people all of the time.

It's funny how when you choose not to follow someone's advice they assume that either you are a fool or that you weren't listening - when all along - you listened but it was not what you wanted because they were not and had never been in your situation and they did not know how you felt and had you attempted to explain it to them they still would not have understood.

Yes, the 'stage' of confusion and frustration can strike at any time. I just wish it had a rule like lightning and didn't strike more than once in the same place.

Maybe I feel too much. Maybe if I were more cold and impersonal and distant it wouldn't always be like I was getting the worse end of the deal.

That's it!!! I shall cut off all the people that I call my 'friends' and become a recluse. I shall no longer hum while I walk nor smile at the sad looking strangers as I pass them by. My phone shall no longer be for 'recreational' chatting, rather a tool for people to locate me by in order to ascertain whether or not I am still alive. No one shall know me and no one shall see me. No more laughter or games. No more walks in the rain. No more music. No more of anything that adds to the 'quality of life' and above all else - no more fiction or dreams or talk of things that cannot be.

Have a good shabbos.
Have a good week.
Enjoy your life,
without me.

Thursday, February 01, 2007

Detoxify. Cleanse. Begin Again...

Today was a normal stressful Thursday. Work and overwork. Then traffic on the way Home.

Saw Zalman and got some time together (even if all I did for close to an hour was kvetch. Speaking of which - you shouldn't just let me go on and on like that. You need to say, "Lori, shut up already and get over it.") But thanks for listening anyway and remember, absolutely NO appendage chewing! :P

Walked over to Saba and Savta's house and saw the pretty new door. Savta made me yummy hot chocolate and then Saba graciously drove me Home so I didn't have to walk in the chilly February night air. (Though it's only 10.3 degrees celsius.)

Now I'm thinking it's unwind time. The next 9 hours are all mine and I don't care if it's good or not but I am totally shutting down. No cell-phone. No computer. NOTHING.

Unless of course - you are REALLY special...

A random 'thought' for tonight:
"Fate loves the fearless." ~James Russell Lowell
What do you reckon?
I suppose it depends on whether you believe in 'fate' and what it is that you fear.