So, today was my Hebrew birthday. Thank you everyone for your kind wishes and birthday cheers. They were very much appreciated. Though I must admit, my faith in birthdays is waning as each year passes because as each one approaches, I stop and think about what I have accomplished in the past year and in reality, I never seem to have done very much. I mean, I have spent a whole lot of hours doing things (and countless more doing none) - but when it comes down to it, the only thing I have really accomplished is staying alive and even that's not really in my control - so I don't feel like it counts.
Nevertheless, I am now 22 years old and I feel utterly unaccomplished in the task that has been set before me. (Not that I know with any certainty what praytell that task may be.) I certainly hope and pray that in the next year I manage to fulfill something worthwhile or at least make an impact in the name of the greater good which is much larger than I myself can ever aspire to be as it encompasses everything that is within the realm created by a Force that I can never hope to understand.
Though, I must to admit that the random acts of kindness performed intentionally or unintentionally by people really do make a difference in the lives of the people around them.
A story to illustrate my point:
This morning at about 6:50 I was woken up by the sound of a balloon being blown up. My eyes popped open and there was Freddie. A pile of balloons was sitting on the foot of my bed and she was blowing them up one by one. When she noticed I was awake she told me a story and then as I lay in bed trying to figure out what to say she pulled a small (portion-control size) chocolate cake (with colorful sprinkles nonetheless) out of her bag as well. I took a moment to internalize the going-ons and then hopped out of bed. In the living room she handed me a bag of whole wheat animal crackers (shaped like dinosaurs) then zipped up her bag and headed off to work.
I hope she realizes that she really made my day something special and memorable and I also hope that she realizes how much I appreciated her effort and the fact that she went out of her way for me.
A smile here, a kind word there, an encouraging push, listening to a friend, helping someone shlep their bags to the bus-stop or home from the store, bending down to pick up something for someone else, etc. etc. etc...
So maybe - if these small acts of random kindness are just parts of the final equation...
In that case, maybe I have done something worthwhile?